Derp and derpina

SPM IS OVER

Or WAS over, about 3 days ago. Now, it's a flurry of events and upcoming ones to plan. Will update soon :) Again, the repeated saying. How time flies ):

I'll save the mushy stuff for the next one, 'cause whenever i think of the ending of this part of my life, i get all wooshy and wonky inside ): To think that i won't have a school to go back to next year when all the uniformed kids are walking through their own familiar school gates.


Okay, stopping here. Brb, hopefully.

childlike wonder.

I love those two words. And i love late nights/early mornings. I love the sunrise (which i, regrettably have not seen yet). I love reading for fun. I love staring into space.
I love stars. I would LOVE to see the norther and southern lights. Aurora, they say. I love the loud, loud, funny laughters and conversations at school.
I love waking up early to go to church. I even love waking up early, going to school, sitting on the tar road and letting my mind wander everywhere during assembly. Though most of the time i talk. (coughs)
I love a lotta things right now, but what i would love would be for SPM to be over. And yet to not. :\

But anyway, busy studying for SPM right now. I know right? How time flies. It seems like just yesterday that we were all new students to SMKSS and standing in awe of all the big buildings and large space that we thought we could get lost in.
Okay, maybe not yesterday but still.

I think i'll get all mushy about this (again) later. Randomly decided to post here. Mostly to procrastinate.

So.. things i should be doing now:

- Study Physics
- Study Bio
- Study Chemistry
- Study History
- Revise Add Maths and Maths
- Get BM and English schtuff straight
- Sleep early
- Stress out more

Things i'm doing right now :

- Watching FRIENDS obsessively
- Lusting after movies
- Thinking of Harry Potter : The Deathly Hallows 2 (which i have NOT watched  yet)
- Let's not forget all the fashion blogs
- and Youtube. Though just for songs. I don't get the whole NigaHiga craze. Heh
- And gosh, how cute is Adam Levine.
- Thinking of the snails i get to eat this Saturday (YES.)
- Reading miscellanous books.
- Thinking of reading MORE books.
- Daydreaming.
- Sleeping. And worse, sleeping IN.
- Tweeting. (the horror)
- Contemplating on life. (I know, deep.)

That's just a few random stuff off the top of my head. On the bright side, got a few awesome purchases during the past week. Now if only i could inject the same amount of passion into my studies..

Make or break time, and i don't even feel the burn yet.
Not good. Not good at all.

"It's a lie to think you're not good enough. It's a lie to think you're not worth anything."

"We can't, and we should not, compare sufferings. We come together as a family of God, hand in hand. And then together coming and standing upon the promises of God, knowing that no matter who you are, no matter what you're going through, that God knows it, He is with you, He is going to pull you through."
— Nick Vujicic

Attended a very useless seminar from this dude from INTI today. On "How To Set Goals". Most of the time a bunch of us were just annoyed at the speaker. But the highlight of it all was Nick Vujicic's video clip that Pn Ina, our counselling teacher decided to show us at the end of it. To encourage us to never give up.
I find her quite a nice person :)

Gotta say i haven't watched any of his videos yet, for fear of intense waterworks. Because just from his quotes and also just a few pictures, his perseverance and just... just his contentment with life is shown. I saw pictures of him through the video clip today, and gosh he looks happier than half the people i know, or anybody would ever know. And he doesn't have arms and legs.
He dared to try and he wasn't afraid to fall down. The most important thing i think he taught me through just those few seconds, is to try try try again.

So often we're fed with motivational quotes of the sort. But to see it truly manifest in such an inspiring and awesome person, it's mindblowing. Seriously giving me a lot of hope for a lot of things now :)

Thank you, Nick Vujicic :)

Am reading Tony Parson's Starting Over now. Hoping that it'll be a good book. Wanted to get his "Stories We Could Tell" but couldn't find it anymore ):
Was just done with Anne Cassidy's Heartburn. Yes, i'm so wimpy i need to read a preteen/teenage genred thriller. The whole storyline was so cliched, that i agree. But i loved it :D
I guess mostly cos it's something different from what i usually read. Speaking of reading. Just finished reading the book of Ruth in the bible last night :) And it's left a lingering impact on me. Of contentment and just.. mini joy for some reason. Feeling a lot of love for that book :)
It feels like i'm striking gold in the literary aspect of my life now.

Shall go watch the vids now. And get my tissues ready.

Awesome awesome, that's our game :D

So.. How was the week?
Well my laptop crashed.
I felt nauseous all the time.
Couldn't eat or sleep well.
Shiao Yen landed on Chloe's head (which thankfully they're fine now, i hope D:)
We got scolded by Paramjit this morning for no reason ugh :\ 
And i also panicked the hell out of myself and felt super duper weak the whole morning.


And our make up melted.
AND we almost didn't get our full members on time ):









BUT YOU KNOW WHAT. WE WON FIRST WOOOOH For the cheerleading category at school!
LAKSAMANA WOOOOH
And gosh, we jumped from being the last place among the four houses to the 2nd at the end of everything <3BEST BETUL WOOOOOH! HAHAHA WE ARE. LAK. SA. MA. NA.

All the hardwork, the staying back, the constant thoughts surrounding Cheer, the amount of homework missed. AND IT ALL PAID OFF :) 
Seriously so proud of everyone in laksamana now <3 And also PBSM!
GOSH we only had like 2 weeks to practice kau kau (or more like THEY haha! their moment of glory) and they placed at 5th overall for the Badan Beruniform category.

BOOYEAHHHH
Being cheer captain was tough, i'll tell you that. And the amount of stress on your shoulders gosh. But seeing how awesomely they did and how much effort every cheer member put in today.. it was sooo worth it.
Thanks to all of you guys for the sweat, tears, pain and blood you 'donated' (;P) for the past month. I saw the video of our cheer today and seriously everyone was so awesome <3 
Can honestly say that this high joy came from knowing that everyone really did their BEST and it didn't matter much whether we placed or not. But getting first still felt awesome la :P


Aiyo, just allow me this moment of brag-ness la ): But seriously so proud of everyone and every team and how awesome this sports day turned out to be! :D


Got to go bathe and everything now. Blegh ): Cos i just wanna sleep. But apparently not bathing and sleeping straight is 'unhygienic' PSSH.
AH WELL. 

So how was bersih?

Even though i wasn't one of the 10-50 thousands that also physically stood for the rally (which is seriously going to be one of my biggest regrets in life ): ), just reading the news was gripping enough for me :) So many views on the the whole rally and how the police did their job.
This is gonna be a short one, seeing as how there's school tomorrow. Which i'm pretty excited for :)

Most amazing thing ever? Seeing a TRUE 1Malaysia occurrence happening. People of different races, religion and cultures coming together to support and stand for one true cause. I do agree with Jek Ann that this stand does not only stand for a fair election, it's the start of change of this country.
And this proves, that change IS possible in Malaysia.

I was deeply moved to be hearing Bersih stories from people from all walks of life. There were chinese tweeters tweeting on how a Malay couple shared salt and water with them so as to protect themselves from the teargases. Chinese, Indians and Malays all held hands walking in the rally. Even hearing of other nations such as Melbourne joining in in the rally at their own cities. Amazing siao.
Also hearing and reading of the crowds singing Negaraku in front of KLCC together!
Having prayers, no matter the race, together, respecting each other's right!
And gosh, the picture with the front liners that stood with linked arms, protecting the other protesters (who are most likely strangers to them)

Now see, THIS is the real 1Malaysia. Seriously not some splashed on advert on taxis and billboards, wasting taxpayers money in the process.

And most exciting/surprising thing ever? My friend, Jofan getting arrested! Oh gosh, you should see the amount of worried friends of his pouring in twitter and facebook! HAHA WE TRENDED #releasejofan :)
We saw him today at YC and gosh was he relaxed about it :D

"HOW WAS IT?"
"Good, good. The food was good! Nasi Kandar and two pieces of chicken which totally worked" haha!

He is seriously one awesome man of God and i betul betul respect him for his passion and integrity :)
What a story he would be able to tell to his grandkids mann. And for all of us, we can say "I HAVE A FRIEND WHO WAS ARRESTED BEFORE!"

Ahaha, saying it loud and proud kay ;) And that's because it was for a good cause, a truthful and right stand. I don't know what the political leaders involved in the rally or not involved in the rally have to say or what they have planned in their personal agendas. What i do know is that 50k Malaysians stood up on the 9th of July. 50k Malaysians want what's right FOR the COUNTRY. 50k Malaysians can't be wrong and we shouldn't let their spirit and passion be wasted like that.

I just really hope that this would not just disintegrate into our normal toils and turmoils of life after yesterday. I hope that in every Malaysian's hearts, there would always be a space, a memory for the 9th of July. Not only for the stand for truth, but also for the fact that this generation has finally seen a true unity among Malaysians.
Because Malaysia should ALREADY mean 1Malaysia :)

BERSIH 2.0

"It has been challenging personally," said Ambiga. Nonetheless, Bersih "understand our responsibility in holding the line on behalf of all of you who want nothing more than a clean electoral system and a better Malaysia." 

"Beneath this YELLOW there is an idea, Mr Najib, and ideas are bulletproof," ;Thomas Chai
Link 

The world is watching.

Why BERSIH? 
Because we the people want a fair and just election.
Because not every political party or government has to be stained with corruption.
Because Malaysia deserves more than this.
Because to be looking at how things are, BERSIH seems to look more like 1Malaysia than 1Malaysia ever did.
Because we want a better future for our kids, our grandkids, our greatgrandkids, our family and friends.
Because we're sick of being "not bothered"

And of course.
Because this is our country
This is our home.
That alone, should be enough said already.

For tomorrow's BERSIH rally, i really pray that Your protection be upon those that are going and that trouble from troublemakers would be avoided. I pray that no hand of dirty play would touch or soil BERSIH's name or stand.
Above all i pray for the success of this rally, no matter how impossible it seems now. Amen :)

Personally, i was very very happy to see how so many people, no matter the race, religion or culture, came together to fight for a just and fair government. This. This is 1Malaysia. Not some 1.something billion propaganda with adverts of it stuck on taxis.


I think, if you have nothing to hide, then you have nothing to be afraid of. So why antagonize a peaceful rally, a Walk For Democracy? And please don't give me nonsense about the democracy in our country. I'm talking about real, fair, CLEAN democracy.

THE LIFE AND TIMES OF THE TWO BIMBOTICALLY RETARDED WHYTHEFACE-CREATURES.

I know, EPIC RIGHT?

Reinforces the bimbo part ahaha!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPPPYYY BELATED BERFDAY MARIANNE! (Y) You should know that this was a stalled post because we were busy planning your surprise KAY! :P And FINALLY we got her. AHAHA
Marianne, you should know, your reaction was priceless. YOU SCREAMED A LITTLE!

AHAHA

I'm going to be semi-mushy/corny here so guys, look away. Marianne, look 'cause i'm gonna quiz you on it.
Thank you for being there for me since Std i-dunno-what. I'm so sorry for not knowing you existed in Std 1 (AHAHAHA) but thanks for introducing me to the anime world. And also the fashion world, which you probably didn't know. I wanted to dress nicer cos you did ;P Or else i'd be stuck in my t-shirt and jeans.

Oh gosh jeans. They're such a burden now. ): I BET YOU AGREE WITH ME.

Okay this is getting random. Let's see, you're my first in a lot of things! (Sorry la, no way not to make this sound wrong :P) My first roller-coaster ride was with you (though it was a tame one xD). Also my first trip out of KL with a friend was with you! And also my first ever INDEPENDENT SHOPPING TRIP. Yes, you should be congratulating yourself now.

And also remember the time when you me and yen ling were top 3? Random memory :D
Also you were my first when we were at the LRT and you *cough* puked. LOL Very unique memory. Yes, i'm never going to let it go. 

We've also had lots of awesome nicknames for ourselves (even if i do say so myself). There was R&B. Retard & Bimbo. Oh gosh, we so pawn Beyonce in being R&B. 
Okay, lame joke BUT ANYWAY. OH YES AND FOREVER FOL-SOMETHINGSOMETHING-BUDDIES. I give you permission to hit me for not remembering T^T

AH YES. And countless sleepovers, either watching random shows or finishing up last minute projects. And sitting next to each other in Form 3. While resisting the urge to skin Kok Kim Chuan and Terence. AHAHA
We have loads of memories la kay. And i don't have to stress how close a friend you are to me, i mean you even know my bra size.

That's serious kay. 

You know you love me.

So just so you know, i'll be glomping onto you for some decades la. But putting that aside, thank you for always listening to me rant. Thank you for trusting me :D Thank you for believing in me (i know you lubbu lubbu me) when i don't myself. Thank you for being supportive. Thank you for not hugging me but letting me hug you (sometimes. we really need to do that more often ): )
Thank you for being mistaken as a lesbian along with me due to our closeness and not *kinda* mind. (i know you don't mind la pssh *WINKS*)
Thank you for understanding and always helping me out 100%. Thank you for the memories 'cause seriously 50-60% of my awesomely funny/interesting/unique/WHYTHEFACE memories involve you.
Thank you for the toilet moments. EHEHEHE. And also thank you for tolerating ME. :D

And thank you for being you and being strong. Because you indirectly tell me that i can be myself too, and who gives two shakes about what others think. And that i can be strong for myself too, which i know you are.  We didn't all look up to you for no reason. Just so you know, the past tense is thanks to your HARD-HITTING palm la you know. WHAT YOU EAT ONE. One hit to the thigh and it feels like kena whipped like that. Though, should i have an EX-boyfriend, (cough coughs) you know what to do :P

You might not know it, and i might not know it sometimes but you're quite embedded into my life and i've become in some ways a better person thanks to you ;) Sorry la, so corny and stuff. Are you crying yet?
No matter what you think, i think you out of all of us deserve the best in a lot of things. And I sincerely, really believe that despite whatever happens now, things are going to straighten out for you and your life's going to be smelling way better than ours. 
I don't say it often, but i really find you very hardworking, how you persevere. I know you're going to deny it but please just say THANK YOU then fan yourself and flutter your eyelids like how i do. ;)It sounds stalkerish la but sometimes when i want to give up studying late in the night, i think of how hard you work and how many nights you endure to study and WOOH i'm fired up again. Yeah i know, that can be translated as kiasu also but EI. AM I THAT KIND OF GIRL!? (don't answer that)

Only for you la okay, i'm unveiling ZE FRINGE again. REMEMBER THIS!? I remember the cheesy pizza

And sorrylah, but i'm not thankful that you're probably going to get married before me okay. I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE 27 CATS AND LIVE ALONE. You know why? Because i'm going to be the third wheel and crash at your future house with your future husband. :D

And just so you know AGAIN :P Remember the whole "Your good friend bails you out of jail, but your best friend is sitting right there next to you saying "Damn we messed up" "? Everytime i think of this situation, your ass will always be sitting next to me. No joke. We're KYOKO AND MOKO okay. Don't play play :D 

This is starting to sound a bit like a confession letter. Ah well, we can be 'lesbians' again i guess ;D COME TO SCHOOL CAN ANOT!? Everyone asking me where're you and how're you and my thigh feels too comfortable without the constant abuse. 

Same place, different year, and we scared the shit out of you ;) hahaha Best accomplishment EVER.

But seriously though, love you :D But not as much as my future blonde-blue-eyed hot angmoh boyfriend. Or Colin Morgan. (COUGH)