childlike wonder.

Derp and derpina

2012-01-28T01:23:00.001+08:00

SPM IS OVER

2011-12-09T01:16:00.000+08:00

Or WAS over, about 3 days ago. Now, it's a flurry of events and upcoming ones to plan. Will update soon :) Again, the repeated saying. How time flies ):

I'll save the mushy stuff for the next one, 'cause whenever i think of the ending of this part of my life, i get all wooshy and wonky inside ): To think that i won't have a school to go back to next year when all the uniformed kids are walking through their own familiar school gates.

Okay, stopping here. Brb, hopefully.

childlike wonder.

2011-10-20T22:52:00.001+08:00

I love those two words. And i love late nights/early mornings. I love the sunrise (which i, regrettably have not seen yet). I love reading for fun. I love staring into space.
I love stars. I would LOVE to see the norther and southern lights. Aurora, they say. I love the loud, loud, funny laughters and conversations at school.
I love waking up early to go to church. I even love waking up early, going to school, sitting on the tar road and letting my mind wander everywhere during assembly. Though most of the time i talk. (coughs)
I love a lotta things right now, but what i would love would be for SPM to be over. And yet to not. :\

But anyway, busy studying for SPM right now. I know right? How time flies. It seems like just yesterday that we were all new students to SMKSS and standing in awe of all the big buildings and large space that we thought we could get lost in.
Okay, maybe not yesterday but still.

I think i'll get all mushy about this (again) later. Randomly decided to post here. Mostly to procrastinate.

So.. things i should be doing now:

- Study Physics
- Study Bio
- Study Chemistry
- Study History
- Revise Add Maths and Maths
- Get BM and English schtuff straight
- Sleep early
- Stress out more

Things i'm doing right now :

- Watching FRIENDS obsessively
- Lusting after movies
- Thinking of Harry Potter : The Deathly Hallows 2 (which i have NOT watched yet)
- Let's not forget all the fashion blogs
- and Youtube. Though just for songs. I don't get the whole NigaHiga craze. Heh
- And gosh, how cute is Adam Levine.
- Thinking of the snails i get to eat this Saturday (YES.)
- Reading miscellanous books.
- Thinking of reading MORE books.
- Daydreaming.
- Sleeping. And worse, sleeping IN.
- Tweeting. (the horror)
- Contemplating on life. (I know, deep.)

That's just a few random stuff off the top of my head. On the bright side, got a few awesome purchases during the past week. Now if only i could inject the same amount of passion into my studies..

Make or break time, and i don't even feel the burn yet.
Not good. Not good at all.

"It's a lie to think you're not good enough. It's a lie to think you're not worth anything."

2011-07-29T21:27:00.001+08:00

"We can't, and we should not, compare sufferings. We come together as a family of God, hand in hand. And then together coming and standing upon the promises of God, knowing that no matter who you are, no matter what you're going through, that God knows it, He is with you, He is going to pull you through."
— Nick Vujicic

Attended a very useless seminar from this dude from INTI today. On "How To Set Goals". Most of the time a bunch of us were just annoyed at the speaker. But the highlight of it all was Nick Vujicic's video clip that Pn Ina, our counselling teacher decided to show us at the end of it. To encourage us to never give up.
I find her quite a nice person :)

Gotta say i haven't watched any of his videos yet, for fear of intense waterworks. Because just from his quotes and also just a few pictures, his perseverance and just... just his contentment with life is shown. I saw pictures of him through the video clip today, and gosh he looks happier than half the people i know, or anybody would ever know. And he doesn't have arms and legs.
He dared to try and he wasn't afraid to fall down. The most important thing i think he taught me through just those few seconds, is to try try try again.

So often we're fed with motivational quotes of the sort. But to see it truly manifest in such an inspiring and awesome person, it's mindblowing. Seriously giving me a lot of hope for a lot of things now :)

Thank you, Nick Vujicic :)

Am reading Tony Parson's Starting Over now. Hoping that it'll be a good book. Wanted to get his "Stories We Could Tell" but couldn't find it anymore ):
Was just done with Anne Cassidy's Heartburn. Yes, i'm so wimpy i need to read a preteen/teenage genred thriller. The whole storyline was so cliched, that i agree. But i loved it :D
I guess mostly cos it's something different from what i usually read. Speaking of reading. Just finished reading the book of Ruth in the bible last night :) And it's left a lingering impact on me. Of contentment and just.. mini joy for some reason. Feeling a lot of love for that book :)
It feels like i'm striking gold in the literary aspect of my life now.

Shall go watch the vids now. And get my tissues ready.

Awesome awesome, that's our game :D

2011-07-23T17:04:00.000+08:00

So.. How was the week?
Well my laptop crashed.
I felt nauseous all the time.
Couldn't eat or sleep well.
Shiao Yen landed on Chloe's head (which thankfully they're fine now, i hope D:)
We got scolded by Paramjit this morning for no reason ugh :\
And i also panicked the hell out of myself and felt super duper weak the whole morning.

And our make up melted.
AND we almost didn't get our full members on time ):

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT. WE WON FIRST WOOOOH For the cheerleading category at school!
LAKSAMANA WOOOOH
And gosh, we jumped from being the last place among the four houses to the 2nd at the end of everything <3BEST BETUL WOOOOOH! HAHAHA WE ARE. LAK. SA. MA. NA.

All the hardwork, the staying back, the constant thoughts surrounding Cheer, the amount of homework missed. AND IT ALL PAID OFF :)
Seriously so proud of everyone in laksamana now <3 And also PBSM!
GOSH we only had like 2 weeks to practice kau kau (or more like THEY haha! their moment of glory) and they placed at 5th overall for the Badan Beruniform category.

BOOYEAHHHH
Being cheer captain was tough, i'll tell you that. And the amount of stress on your shoulders gosh. But seeing how awesomely they did and how much effort every cheer member put in today.. it was sooo worth it.
Thanks to all of you guys for the sweat, tears, pain and blood you 'donated' (;P) for the past month. I saw the video of our cheer today and seriously everyone was so awesome <3
Can honestly say that this high joy came from knowing that everyone really did their BEST and it didn't matter much whether we placed or not. But getting first still felt awesome la :P

Aiyo, just allow me this moment of brag-ness la ): But seriously so proud of everyone and every team and how awesome this sports day turned out to be! :D

Got to go bathe and everything now. Blegh ): Cos i just wanna sleep. But apparently not bathing and sleeping straight is 'unhygienic' PSSH.
AH WELL.

So how was bersih?

2011-07-10T23:36:00.001+08:00

Even though i wasn't one of the 10-50 thousands that also physically stood for the rally (which is seriously going to be one of my biggest regrets in life ): ), just reading the news was gripping enough for me :) So many views on the the whole rally and how the police did their job.
This is gonna be a short one, seeing as how there's school tomorrow. Which i'm pretty excited for :)

Most amazing thing ever? Seeing a TRUE 1Malaysia occurrence happening. People of different races, religion and cultures coming together to support and stand for one true cause. I do agree with Jek Ann that this stand does not only stand for a fair election, it's the start of change of this country.
And this proves, that change IS possible in Malaysia.

I was deeply moved to be hearing Bersih stories from people from all walks of life. There were chinese tweeters tweeting on how a Malay couple shared salt and water with them so as to protect themselves from the teargases. Chinese, Indians and Malays all held hands walking in the rally. Even hearing of other nations such as Melbourne joining in in the rally at their own cities. Amazing siao.
Also hearing and reading of the crowds singing Negaraku in front of KLCC together!
Having prayers, no matter the race, together, respecting each other's right!
And gosh, the picture with the front liners that stood with linked arms, protecting the other protesters (who are most likely strangers to them)

Now see, THIS is the real 1Malaysia. Seriously not some splashed on advert on taxis and billboards, wasting taxpayers money in the process.

And most exciting/surprising thing ever? My friend, Jofan getting arrested! Oh gosh, you should see the amount of worried friends of his pouring in twitter and facebook! HAHA WE TRENDED #releasejofan :)
We saw him today at YC and gosh was he relaxed about it :D

"HOW WAS IT?"
"Good, good. The food was good! Nasi Kandar and two pieces of chicken which totally worked" haha!

He is seriously one awesome man of God and i betul betul respect him for his passion and integrity :)
What a story he would be able to tell to his grandkids mann. And for all of us, we can say "I HAVE A FRIEND WHO WAS ARRESTED BEFORE!"

Ahaha, saying it loud and proud kay ;) And that's because it was for a good cause, a truthful and right stand. I don't know what the political leaders involved in the rally or not involved in the rally have to say or what they have planned in their personal agendas. What i do know is that 50k Malaysians stood up on the 9th of July. 50k Malaysians want what's right FOR the COUNTRY. 50k Malaysians can't be wrong and we shouldn't let their spirit and passion be wasted like that.

I just really hope that this would not just disintegrate into our normal toils and turmoils of life after yesterday. I hope that in every Malaysian's hearts, there would always be a space, a memory for the 9th of July. Not only for the stand for truth, but also for the fact that this generation has finally seen a true unity among Malaysians.
Because Malaysia should ALREADY mean 1Malaysia :)

BERSIH 2.0

2011-07-09T00:30:00.001+08:00

"It has been challenging personally," said Ambiga. Nonetheless, Bersih "understand our responsibility in holding the line on behalf of all of you who want nothing more than a clean electoral system and a better Malaysia."

"Beneath this YELLOW there is an idea, Mr Najib, and ideas are bulletproof," ;Thomas Chai
Link

The world is watching.

Why BERSIH?
Because we the people want a fair and just election.
Because not every political party or government has to be stained with corruption.
Because Malaysia deserves more than this.
Because to be looking at how things are, BERSIH seems to look more like 1Malaysia than 1Malaysia ever did.
Because we want a better future for our kids, our grandkids, our greatgrandkids, our family and friends.
Because we're sick of being "not bothered"

And of course.
Because this is our country
This is our home.
That alone, should be enough said already.

For tomorrow's BERSIH rally, i really pray that Your protection be upon those that are going and that trouble from troublemakers would be avoided. I pray that no hand of dirty play would touch or soil BERSIH's name or stand.
Above all i pray for the success of this rally, no matter how impossible it seems now. Amen :)

Personally, i was very very happy to see how so many people, no matter the race, religion or culture, came together to fight for a just and fair government. This. This is 1Malaysia. Not some 1.something billion propaganda with adverts of it stuck on taxis.

I think, if you have nothing to hide, then you have nothing to be afraid of. So why antagonize a peaceful rally, a Walk For Democracy? And please don't give me nonsense about the democracy in our country. I'm talking about real, fair, CLEAN democracy.

THE LIFE AND TIMES OF THE TWO BIMBOTICALLY RETARDED WHYTHEFACE-CREATURES.

2011-07-04T18:23:00.000+08:00

I know, EPIC RIGHT?

Reinforces the bimbo part ahaha!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPPPYYY BELATED BERFDAY MARIANNE! (Y) You should know that this was a stalled post because we were busy planning your surprise KAY! :P And FINALLY we got her. AHAHA
Marianne, you should know, your reaction was priceless. YOU SCREAMED A LITTLE!

AHAHA

I'm going to be semi-mushy/corny here so guys, look away. Marianne, look 'cause i'm gonna quiz you on it.
Thank you for being there for me since Std i-dunno-what. I'm so sorry for not knowing you existed in Std 1 (AHAHAHA) but thanks for introducing me to the anime world. And also the fashion world, which you probably didn't know. I wanted to dress nicer cos you did ;P Or else i'd be stuck in my t-shirt and jeans.

Oh gosh jeans. They're such a burden now. ): I BET YOU AGREE WITH ME.

Okay this is getting random. Let's see, you're my first in a lot of things! (Sorry la, no way not to make this sound wrong :P) My first roller-coaster ride was with you (though it was a tame one xD). Also my first trip out of KL with a friend was with you! And also my first ever INDEPENDENT SHOPPING TRIP. Yes, you should be congratulating yourself now.

And also remember the time when you me and yen ling were top 3? Random memory :D
Also you were my first when we were at the LRT and you *cough* puked. LOL Very unique memory. Yes, i'm never going to let it go.

We've also had lots of awesome nicknames for ourselves (even if i do say so myself). There was R&B. Retard & Bimbo. Oh gosh, we so pawn Beyonce in being R&B.
Okay, lame joke BUT ANYWAY. OH YES AND FOREVER FOL-SOMETHINGSOMETHING-BUDDIES. I give you permission to hit me for not remembering T^T

AH YES. And countless sleepovers, either watching random shows or finishing up last minute projects. And sitting next to each other in Form 3. While resisting the urge to skin Kok Kim Chuan and Terence. AHAHA
We have loads of memories la kay. And i don't have to stress how close a friend you are to me, i mean you even know my bra size.

That's serious kay.

You know you love me.

So just so you know, i'll be glomping onto you for some decades la. But putting that aside, thank you for always listening to me rant. Thank you for trusting me :D Thank you for believing in me (i know you lubbu lubbu me) when i don't myself. Thank you for being supportive. Thank you for not hugging me but letting me hug you (sometimes. we really need to do that more often ): )
Thank you for being mistaken as a lesbian along with me due to our closeness and not *kinda* mind. (i know you don't mind la pssh *WINKS*)
Thank you for understanding and always helping me out 100%. Thank you for the memories 'cause seriously 50-60% of my awesomely funny/interesting/unique/WHYTHEFACE memories involve you.
Thank you for the toilet moments. EHEHEHE. And also thank you for tolerating ME. :D

And thank you for being you and being strong. Because you indirectly tell me that i can be myself too, and who gives two shakes about what others think. And that i can be strong for myself too, which i know you are. We didn't all look up to you for no reason. Just so you know, the past tense is thanks to your HARD-HITTING palm la you know. WHAT YOU EAT ONE. One hit to the thigh and it feels like kena whipped like that. Though, should i have an EX-boyfriend, (cough coughs) you know what to do :P

You might not know it, and i might not know it sometimes but you're quite embedded into my life and i've become in some ways a better person thanks to you ;) Sorry la, so corny and stuff. Are you crying yet?
No matter what you think, i think you out of all of us deserve the best in a lot of things. And I sincerely, really believe that despite whatever happens now, things are going to straighten out for you and your life's going to be smelling way better than ours.
I don't say it often, but i really find you very hardworking, how you persevere. I know you're going to deny it but please just say THANK YOU then fan yourself and flutter your eyelids like how i do. ;)It sounds stalkerish la but sometimes when i want to give up studying late in the night, i think of how hard you work and how many nights you endure to study and WOOH i'm fired up again. Yeah i know, that can be translated as kiasu also but EI. AM I THAT KIND OF GIRL!? (don't answer that)

Only for you la okay, i'm unveiling ZE FRINGE again. REMEMBER THIS!? I remember the cheesy pizza

And sorrylah, but i'm not thankful that you're probably going to get married before me okay. I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE 27 CATS AND LIVE ALONE. You know why? Because i'm going to be the third wheel and crash at your future house with your future husband. :D

And just so you know AGAIN :P Remember the whole "Your good friend bails you out of jail, but your best friend is sitting right there next to you saying "Damn we messed up" "? Everytime i think of this situation, your ass will always be sitting next to me. No joke. We're KYOKO AND MOKO okay. Don't play play :D

This is starting to sound a bit like a confession letter. Ah well, we can be 'lesbians' again i guess ;D COME TO SCHOOL CAN ANOT!? Everyone asking me where're you and how're you and my thigh feels too comfortable without the constant abuse.

Same place, different year, and we scared the shit out of you ;) hahaha Best accomplishment EVER.

But seriously though, love you :D But not as much as my future blonde-blue-eyed hot angmoh boyfriend. Or Colin Morgan. (COUGH)

"I am convinced that He (God) does not play dice." ; Albert Einstein

2011-07-02T17:03:00.002+08:00

I find him quite interesting, in a sense where he has this abundant mind that surrounds the science and maths world yet have such profound thoughts about life in creative yet science-related way.
I'm not sure how to explain it, but i love this quote

"Imagination is more important than knowledge."

"I want to know God's thoughts; the rest are details."

I've always thought of him as a square mathematician that denies the existence of God. Well, i haven't researched or read up on him long enough to know for sure that he's this or that, but from his quotes, he's just not what i expected. I feel at least, from his quotes (which i might be wrong for) that he believes Science doesn't explain everything. Yet it doesn't explain nothing.

I personally find Science (whichever branch of it) quite interesting. For Physics, i see the laws of Physics and how everything has it's balance, how God created it. Gravity pulls us down but doesn't crush us. Energy can never be destroyed or created but only changed- into what, is the amazing thing (at least for a nerd like me la).
God created the world, yes this i know my whole life. But now i see how intricate, delicate, precise and complex everything is, which just puts me in awe of His power again.

Mathematically, it's tough but for almost every equation whether addition, subtraction, division, multiplication, etc, there's always an answer.

I don't know why but i find the fact that a bunch of numbers that add up, in a sense, really.. amazing. I know la, i get amazed easily :P

And also the intricacy in humans that we learn in Bio. I'm (again) very amazed (i should find a synonym for this word) that a uterus wall has to break down every month just for a newborn. In a sense that, God created us in such a way that our body's uterus wall breaks down every month just to prepare a new home for each foetus.
Such care and delicacy in how we come into this world. And also for Chemistry. Well i'll think of something about that, because Chemistry and i have a strained relationship right now. We just can't communicate, i don't understand its 'Esters' and hydrocarbons and it just won't simplify things for me.

Back to Einstein;
His hair kind of speaks volume to me too, in that he doesn't give much care to what people think about him.

Quotes from Albert Einstein
"Any intelligent fool can make things bigger, more complex, and more violent. It takes a touch of genius -- and a lot of courage -- to move in the opposite direction."

"The hardest thing in the world to understand is the income tax."

"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."

"The only real valuable thing is intuition."

"A person starts to live when he can live outside himself."

"God is subtle but he is not malicious."

"God does not care about our mathematical difficulties. He integrates empirically."

"Weakness of attitude becomes weakness of character."

"I never think of the future. It comes soon enough."

"The eternal mystery of the world is its comprehensibility."

"Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new."

"Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds."

"Science is a wonderful thing if one does not have to earn one's living at it."

"The secret to creativity is knowing how to hide your sources."

"The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education."

"Peace cannot be kept by force. It can only be achieved by understanding."

"Education is what remains after one has forgotten everything he learned in school."

"The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing."

"Do not worry about your difficulties in Mathematics. I can assure you mine are still greater."

"If A is a success in life, then A equals x plus y plus z. Work is x; y is play; and z is keeping your mouth shut."

"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the the universe."

"No, this trick won't work...How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?"

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed."

"Not everything that counts can be counted, and not everything that can be counted counts." (Sign hanging in Einstein's office at Princeton)

Copyright: Kevin Harris 1995

Lately i've been inconsiderate in my opinion ): But today kind of hit me with what my friend said and a tragedy i found out about and also a lot of other things added up together.
I know it's so cliched and also such a late epiphany, but there are larger things at hand happening everywhere around me. I'm just selfish to think that what i'm facing is big enough for me to ignore every other problem others face.

And no, this is not one of those "Oh-woe-is-me-pity-me" things.

I admit that i talk too much, complain too much and also always talk before i think. Mot a good combination and yes, im not proud to say that i have a short fuse. (i'm pretty sure that my friends and family already know that. And yet they're still beside me, that says something) But i'm going to try and hold my tongue. Wish me luck. This seems harder than Add Maths ): Though it's not. But it feels like it. But it shouldn't.

Okay nevermind, i should go bathe after cleaning the drain today. DID I MENTION I FINALLY FINISHED A RUN IN YEARS?! 1.5km baby! But i did pant like no tomorrow after that.
Oh yes, and Char Lie & Char Nie organised a clean up for our school field which a number of people participated in today :) Awesome stuff! Something else that's equally awesome? CENDOL. CENDOL. CENDOL.

I should really get to that bath.

Yesterday's lazy, cures today's crazy ; Cam, Modern Family

2011-07-01T21:43:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I get scared that there's got to be some balance to the way things work in the universe-- like you pay for good days by then having bad days, you pay for joy with pain.. Like if you have the most perfect week ever, watch out! It's about to get really awful! Some sort of minor or major tragedy is bound to strike! I hope that's not the way it all goes down. I really hope not.

;Taylor Swift

So today was eventful. Our house almost got broken in today, though i think it was one of those 'shoe thieves'. I remember it was about 6am ++ and i woke up a little thanks to the alarm.
It was funny though, cos i thought that the alarm malfunctioned and started ringing and my parents were just shouting at each other to turn it off xD.
Turns out my mom spotted the mysterious figure and switched on the alarm. And even then, i think he climbed over our wall. So my dad shouted at him and he ran off.

So yeahh. I ALWAYS MISS THINGS LIKE THESE. Should've woken up when i heard the alarm. Must so do that the next time. Though, for obvious and safety reasons, i really hope there's no next time.

Then it's time for Hari Bicara Akademik. Gosh, was it hectic, i totally forgot about having to give a small talk on a science info in the morning. Then i scrambled to read through it and also look for a vest (seeing as how i've FINALLY retired and ergo, the vest is useless :P)
Thank you Shiao Yen for being such a dork to wear it. LOL KIDDING (in case she sees this :P) But yes, thanks to her I don't look like a dork xD

But i was still shaking when i was up there. You'd think having done public speaking before that it'd help. Oh ho ho no.

But yes, the funny part;
So my mom was there. Yes, to hear about my evaluation and also Mid Term results. I tried coaxing my teacher into a deal the day before seeing as how Pricilla and I helped her out in sorting the report cards. I mean it's only fair that she sugarcoats our evaluations and leave out the part where i'm *cough* just a tad bit loud during class *cough*.

But no such luck

"Banyak mulut sikit" "Tapi cikgu, i tanya soalan meaning i'm a good student la!""(laughs)"

My teacher's very funny la kay xD Although she tries to be serious and reprimand our class for our.. noisiness and also other faults, she ends up laughing cos we feed her lots of crap excuses.
OH YES. Before i continue, i must so talk about the whiteboard

How did we decorate it?

With caricatures (that's just a fancy way of saying it was doodles) of every student in our class. HAHAHA And in the middle was our class teacher, Pn Fazira saying "Aiyo.." Which she always does.
You should've seen us during the last 10-20 minutes of school yesterday (which was the amount of time we took to finish it up) We were so loud but towards the end everyone sat down and only Pricilla, Yen Ling, Sook Yii and I were doing all the hardwork

Some classmates they are. PSSH :P

But with all seriousness, i wouldn't trade this class for any other :) It's like family in school. And they keep my sane from bursting or anything like that.
Which is ironic since they're almost as crazy as me.

But anyway the funny part, which is quite sad for me comes from Sook Yii's sms to me after i left the class

"Pn aima & fazira : *stares at u and ur mom walk off* eh. Mak leih cantik drp anak. *whole class laughs* XD XD"

OH THANKS GUYS THANKS. At least now i know what that loud laugh was for ): But on the bright side, i got to go shopping after that while those suckers had to stay at school and wait.
WHO'S LAUGHING NOW?

Okay, leg. Cramping. Up.

Oh gosh, it's already 9.28pm. Gonna try and go sleep seeing as how there's going to be the 1Malaysia run and also the clean up for the school field tomorrow. And also some plans on sunday. Which includes going to KL again and something else.
I really hope Monday is NOT a holiday.

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, i'll sell em for a dollar

2011-06-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

Astrid is seriously beyond beautiful.

"People can surprise you, you get used to thinking of them one way- stuck in their roles,they are what they are- and then they do something that shows you there's all this depth and dimension that you never knew existed."
;Mitchell, Modern Family

Been watching a lot of Modern Family lately and i agree with Marianne; i love the chemistry between all the actors :)

Lots of stuff happenin at one go now ): Can't wait till August to get my real nerd-on. Wish me luck!

OH yes, did i mention i'm sitting down during assembly already? I didn't? Okay then:

I'M SITTING DOWN. ON TAR ROAD. DURING ASSEMBLY. AND I'M NOT CLIPPING MY HAIR UP. That's badass in my world.

I feel like the coolest girl ever right now.

Why #bersih?

Because i believe in a better country for everyone no matter the race, religion or culture.
And i believe it can happen.

So go! BE BERSIH :)

Brown Eyes

2011-06-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

"But that's okay," she suddenly said and turned to look down at me. I blinked up at her. She grinned a little. "It's okay that you're bad at sports."

I nodded a little. "I guess - "

"Or if you're not that brilliant."

My neutral expression slipped into a glare. "I think I get it -"

"Or if you're a little clumsy."

"OK!" I sat up. "It's not my fault my hand-eye coordination skills are nonexistent." Grumbling, I threw my hair over my shoulder before laying back down. So what if I couldn't catch a ball? Did I need that in my future career? Was I planning on becoming a basketball player?

I didn't think so.

"You know why?" Lina suddenly said, her eyes trained on the sky. I glanced back at her. She was being scarily serious. Lina was usually calm yet teasing. She was observant, like Dad, but sociable, like Mom.

"Why?" I asked slowly. I had a feeling she was in her own world where no one can reach her. She tended to drift when she was deep in thought; it was where she got all her thinking done, I've noticed. Sometimes she would just sit outside, thinking to herself. When Lina had a problem, all she had to do was solve it quietly with her own mind.

She doesn't blow up like I do.

"You're strong." She suddenly smiled at me, her eyes shining with confidence. "You are, even if you don't believe so. You don't need natural athletic abilities, or to be born intelligent. I know if you want to prove the world wrong then you'll do it. You're just like that, Cassidy."

by xoxluurve @ fictionpress.

Love her work :)

I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel the sky tumblin down

2011-06-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

Ah, the oldies :) I don't know where i've heard this before but it's familiar to me. (But i do remember what reminded me of this song; a strip from Zits :)
Jeremy and his mom is the bomb.)
Reminds me to of my dad's sort of Sound/Music room in the third floor that he used to have and almost every night we'd all be able to hear an oldie or another blaring from the third floor.

Just finished reading Brown Eyes by xoxluurve @ Fictionpress. Two words. Love it.
And in case it's not obvious enough let me just say this again with added exclamation marks; LOVE IT!!!!
Oh the love, the heartbreak, the angst and the humour :D
I read "Baby I'm Not Finished" (by her too) and gosh was it heart wrenching. I like how she successfully writes all these angsty yet touching love stories without even needing a kiss between the two chars like in BINF.
Can't wait till BE ends! Though it might take long seeing as how it started in 2006 and it's still not done ): But i like the pace of it. Patience is a virtue.

Well obviously the song above doesn't really have anything to do with the story.. But i think it deserves a post, seeing as how i spent my wee hours in the morning today reading it, and also half my afternoon. And then spending the next few hours (almost) crying over the story and mulling over it. Oh, gosh.

All i know is, i know nothing; Socrates

2011-06-06T17:53:00.000+08:00

Beyond cool

Thought of You by Ryan Woodward
Reminds me of the Google header for Martha Graham's birthday they did sometime back. Maybe cos it was the same guy that made it.
I was really obsessed over finding a moving picture of it, even if it was during my Mid Terms. Or was it before, forgot the timeline.
But nonetheless, it was as beautiful and awesome as this video. Went to its Youtube link and found so many interpretations of this vid.

Me? i think it started off as a dream with him and her together with her as the dreamer in a very.. dreamlike sort of form? But she (the dreamer) wakes up and we find out that he, is the dream. And then he slowly fades away leaving her in the agony and anguish of loss again that she must've felt in the first place.
I think. Haha, cos watching it just left me in a very mind-numbing, whoa-how-did-he-do-that state.

I like what some users in Youtube also commented saying;

"I see a man who thinks he has fallen in love with a woman when, in reality, he's in love with the idea of her. He's in love with this perfect, elusive person he has built up in his mind. But, when he finally gets the real thing -- when the girl lets him close enough to really see her, when she lets him in -- he loses interest. When he sees her with all her dimensions, her black outlines and solid shapes... things change. He liked chasing the dream, not her."

i like this the most,

"At first glance of the video, it appears that this man is having thoughts and dreams about this woman that he loved so much and had left. He misses her and longs to be near her again, and feels like he should have never left her in the first place. Life seems so heavy without her, and to even move seems to hold him to the ground.

But no… She has not solidified at all, but was awakening from her own dream of him. Of what she had hoped he had felt for her while they were apart and why he came back to her.
And in that moment as he begins to leave, it is in that moment she truly realizes that it’s over."

Okay random babble. Now, watch it! :)

God's glory is on tour in the skies. God-craft on exhibit across the horizon. ; Psalms 19:1

2011-06-06T17:18:00.000+08:00

Just a few random pictures.

Van Gogh

I'm beautiful, just not to everyone.

2011-05-31T16:42:00.001+08:00

And that's okay.

Random epiphany :)

Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

2011-05-31T16:34:00.003+08:00

In the "Coda" section:

"If Mormons do not like my plays, let them write their own. If the Irish hate my Dublin stories, let them rent typewriters. If teachers and grammar school editors find my jawbreaker sentences shatter their mushmilk teeth, let them eat stale cake dunked in weak tea of their own ungodly manufacture. If the Chicano intellectuals wish to re-cut my "Wonderful Ice Cream Suit" so it shapes "Zoot", may the belt unravel and the pants fall.

For, let's face it, digression is the soul of wit. Take philosophic asides away from Dante, Milton or Hamlet's father's ghost and what stays is dry bones."

"In sum, do not insult me with the beheadings, finger-choppings or the lung-deflations you plan for my works. I need my head to shake or nod, my hand to wave or make a fist, my lungs to shout or whisper with. I will not go gently onto a shelf, degutted, to become a non-book.
All you umpires, back to the bleachers. Referees, hit the showers. It's my game. I pitch, I hit, I catch. I run the bases. At sunset I've won or lost. At sunrise I'm out again, giving it the old try.
And no one can help me. Not even you."

; Ray Bradbury

A great piece of work regarding the cencorship of mind and also the extinction of reading and books.

It's set in a futuristic world where books are banned and burned once found. It's funny that Mr. Bradbury wrote this in the 50s and can almost accurately describe what's going on now, in the 21st century.

Nuclear wars, retardation of literature, education in the backseat, abortion, complacency and all that. Though everything at a higher exaggerated level. I get depressed reading the book sometimes, thinking if our world's moving towards those modern Dark Ages as in the book.

But, no choice, it's our Eng Lit novel material to dissect ;P I have a love-hate relationship with this book. I love the whole concept of it but i get annoyed at the long descriptive sentences. And sometimes i'm in awe of Ray Bradbury's choice of words albeit long.

Pretty awesome book to read though :D It's banned in America i think. But again, awesome sauce. Though the ending's a bit of an open ending.

So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways

2011-05-31T14:53:00.002+08:00

I really love that line in Raise Your Glass by P!nk :)
Super mucho much to update about. But first things first ; MID TERMS ARE OVER (for some time now. oh yeaah, i'm outdated all right)
Now to stress about cheer and lack of attendance OTL Oh and don't forget kawad and first aid. Ah yes, and the every impending doom of SPM.
Can i cry now? ): For one thing, i finally know what i want to major in now :)
BY THE WAY. I should post this in case i forget. BEST MOVIE EXPERIENCE EVER ON SUNDAY AHAHAHA With the Cengal peeps
And gosh, 5 minutes into the movie, the screen blacked out and the lights came on. Waited for 15 minutes ):
We kept going

"Okay guys! INNER PEACE. INNER. PEACE."
"NEVERMIND. This is the pain and suffering they were talking about"
"5 more minutes!? Do what wor, sex ah?"

For the record the last line came from Kah Deng. And that earned him a LOT of stares from the aunties and kids in the row in front of us AHAHAHA Which led to almost the whole cinema looking at him xD
Yes, we made a lotta noise. And there was a lot of popcorn throwing.
And yes, you need to wat KUNG FU PANDA 2 to understand the above sentences.

You haven't? It's okay. (suckers) :P

But i still think the first one's better D: Wasn't as funny. Should've watched Thor cos Kiieshan's mom said it was awesomeees.
BUT ANYWAY Will elaborate on that another time, for now here's the three songs stuck in my head and my playlist on loop :D

Like i said, i LOVE the first line of the chorus. HAHA The middle part of the song with the FISH word, not so much.

Haha, the song that i got Asher (i mean, ESTHER ;) haha inside joke) addicted to :) Guy i met at Public Speaking comp @ Sunway. His friend Azriel sat next to me throughout the semifinals and he got into Finals! Congrats ;)

Heard this on the radio and was shocked to find out it was Sugarland. I loved their song... what was it called again? Ah meh it wasn't that importante anyway haha

I always think of Kate and William whenever i listen to this HAHA Oh yes, i'm still stuck on that awesome Royal Wedding. It's just all the more magical because they're REALLY in love! But apart from that i'm liking the song and music vid :D Mellow-ish and gosh, i want a house like that when i grow up. And a schnauzer. Don't forget a schnauzer 8D Okay back to daydreaming and panicking.

TO MY DEAR WIFE :D

2011-04-16T15:51:00.002+08:00

NAH embarassing pic of me, nice one of you. SEE THE SACRIFICE I'M MAKING FOR YOU T_T

Christmas production! GOOD TIMES :)

AHAHAHAHAHA

NO. i was NOT reciting a love poem to you chloe! D<

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHLOEEE ❤

i hope you don't mind me using your pictures xD the more embarassing ones will be.. elsewhere ;P

LOVE YOU LOTS :D Thank you for always being there for me, listening to me rant, marry me on facebook without a complaint, and have such awesomely cute kids together ahahaha!
You're one of the sweetest and nicest and most awesome woman of God i know! I'm glad to have been there in your high school life and your journey with God :D And i can say, you're on the right track, BABEH!
And if i'm too loud and bossy most of the time, SORRY ): Cos i can get.. bleghh haha! yeah :3
Had an AWEESOME time at your house yest night ! Along with the other retards ;D ...remember, we shall not speak of the sotong cutting incident. OKAY? OKAY!

Advertisements make people dumb

2011-04-16T15:36:00.000+08:00

And so was the topic of our public speaking. My mind is formulating formal and speech-like words right now. LOL i think it's going to take some time to seep back into OMG LA talk >D

...OMG LA. (there, done) haha! It was DEFINITELY nerve-wracking but after doing our prepared speech, which was the first preliminary round, i felt so pumped up! Although i was a bit soft (according to Jason and what he eavesdropped from the judges xP) and not as... dynamic. But yeahhh Boey and i made it into the 2nd round which was an impromptu speech.

"Peace is possible" was the topic. And alllll the contestants got fooled into thinking that each contestant had a different topic, when in fact EVERYONE had the same one LOL! But thankfully i got through it and even got into semifinals!

Excuse me while i do my happy dance (cue embarassing dance moves).

Which was really a surprise, a great one 8D But unfortunately AND fortunately i didn't get into finals. Fortunately, because finals will be in June which is just too long away for me ): And i'll be very busy for the next two months D: But anyway, SEMIFINALS

Before, all we had to do was present our speech in front of a class. Now THIS time, we had to do it in front of an AUDITORIUM. and of all things, the topic was "Hairspray" ): So although i had points, i lacked in that entertaining aspect of it. But really, the finalists all deserved to be finalists! They are VERY VERY good. Entertaining and convincing. One guy even got an applause halfway through his speech haha!

And it was funny how me and the other semifinalists were chatting our mouths off while we waited during each interval for each contestant. They were all very supportive too. Clapping each others backs and giving congratulatory and encouraging handshakes.
THEY'RE SUCH NICE PEOPLE 8D And it was so fun talking crap with them. Especially the part about Amanda (one of the semifinalists). She's like a big ball of energy apparently and there was some funny banter between her and Clement just before she got on stage.

But she got into the finals :D And she's the ONLY GIRL in the top 6. Now, tell me that isn't awesome! Char Lie and Jason tagged along too, with Cik Choong driving, to support us :D YOU GUYS ROCK LA! about 6 hours of speech-listening and they got through it haha!
I'm so glad they were there, made Boey and i feel much better having familiar faces around.

All in all it was an AWESOME experience, if you ever get the chance to go, GO! The waiting is the only agonizing thing, once you're on stage it's like a do or die moment. So the adrenaline rush ; WOOH. haha!

Definitely an academic experience i won't forget :D

You may say that i'm a freakshow

2011-04-09T20:34:00.001+08:00

But give it just a lil time,

Yeah, you may think that I'm a zero
But, hey, everyone you wanna be
Probably started off like me
You may say that I'm a freakshow (I don't care)
But, hey, give me just a little time
I bet you're gonna change your mind

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me

Push me up against the locker
And hey, all I do is shake it off
I'll get you back when I'm your boss
I'm not thinkin' 'bout you haters
'Cause hey, I could be a superstar
I'll see you when you wash my car

All of the dirt you've been throwin' my way
It ain't so hard to take, that's right
'Cause I know one day you'll be screamin' my name
And I'll just look away, that's right

Just go ahead and hate on me and run your mouth
So everyone can hear
Hit me with the words you got and knock me down
Baby, I don't care
Keep it up, I'm tunin' up to fade you out
You wanna be
You wanna be
A loser like me
A loser like me
A loser like me

YOU WANNA BE. A LOSER LIKE ME. haha best song ever :D

"Someday we'll find our place here in this world."

2011-03-30T22:51:00.001+08:00

I bawled my eyes out towards the middle of the video. Heard this on the radio the other day, on my way home from tuition. Instantly recognized Carrie's voice.
I love all, if not most, of her songs :) And this is no exception. It has such touching storylines that just subtly flicks at you. Haha, flicks. But anyway, click that play button :D And hopefully you'll cry as much as i did.

Little boy, 6 years old
A little too used to bein' alone.
Another new mom and dad,another school,
Another house that'll never be home.
When people ask him how he likes this place...
He looks up and says, with a smile upon his face,

"This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong.
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is my
Temporary Home."

Young mom on her own.
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go.
She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out,
Because a half-way house will never be a home.
At night she whispers to her baby girl,
"Someday we'll find our place here in this world."

"This is our temporary home.
It's not where we belong.
Windows and rooms that we're passin' through.
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is our
Temporary Home."

Old man, hospital bed,
The room is filled with people he loves.
And he whispers don't cry for me,
I'll see you all someday.
He looks up and says, "I can see God's face."

"This is my temporary Home
It's not where I belong.
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This was just a stop,on the way to where I'm going.
I'm not afraid because I know... this was
My temporary home."
This is our temporary home.

Monster High

2011-03-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

it even has a plushie version! :3

I found this oddly cool (though i hate its theme song :\) after reading Jane (of Sea Of Shoes fame)'s post that had a picture of these dolls. Then i googled it. And then spent about 1-2 hours reading the 'bios' on these dolls.
Yes, i'm a freak at heart. Haha. But anyway.. I WANT A FRANKIE DOLL ): Or the frankenstein one, whichever one you wanna call 'em.

Oh yes, lemme explain. Mattel released these new ranges of dolls under the name Monster High. The concept is like this; what if famous mythical or blah monsters have teenage offsprings? So yeahh, there's dracula, whose daughter is Draculaura.
Then there's Frankie Stein, who is of course the offspring of Frankenstein. Then there's Cleo De Nile, the daughter of Imhotep? Was it? Or Cleopatra. I forgot. And there's the 'son' of Medusa, named Deuce Gorgon or something.

I am very very oddly attracted to this concept/these dolls 8D Or at least the girl dolls. Somehow guy dolls are just not cute to me ): They look better in cartoon forms. But anyway! I WANT A FRANKIE STEIN ONE! I EVEN TOOK THE TEST. It says i'm most like frankie WOOH.
...Don't look at me like that.

I remember gushing about this to Kushaal and Marianne at their duty spots and it earned me quite a few odd looks from the younger prefects. (coughs) WHAT?
Yes, it's weird and creepy in a way.. but.. but.. SO AWESOMES. (points at dolls)

"Brick walls are there for a reason. They give us a chance to show how badly we want something."

2011-03-22T23:17:00.000+08:00

Just finished The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch and it has been one of the most amazing reading experiences of my life! I love memoirs/biographies like these (this and Tuesdays With Morrie).
It's so light, yet deep and insightful. I couldn't put the book down, and more often than not i find myself laughing while i read it, even if it's written by a professor who has ten tumours in his pancreas/liver (i forgot which was it D:)

Thing is, he had this whole lecture planned out and it revolved around his childhood dreams and how he got to accomplish almost all of them. Including being and Imagineer at Disneyland! I haven't even BEEN to Disneyland ):
It's just mucho inspiring, especially for an SPM student who still doesn't know where to go in life (or course-choosing).

I don't think i'll do the book justice at all by just talking here, haha! GO READ IT. Guarantee one of the best reads of your life :) Well at least it was for me.

Must. Strengthen. Tongue. ):

'Excited' electrons

2011-03-15T12:47:00.001+08:00

BLURBEBLURBEBUMBUMDADIDAOIJHFOIWJEdMSAIRUGHF WOOOH

HAHA i'm in my happy place now ;) I'M AN EXCITED ELECTRON ❤.

...it doesn't get any lamer than this.

And maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing,

2011-03-13T16:39:00.001+08:00

YC IZZ AWESOMES :D I missed it cos i had to skip it last week thanks to the prefect motivational course thing ): (which was.. surprisingly awesome! For once it wasn't all boring talks and it had actual advices that we could really use :)
we watched Gridiron too! The one with Dwayne Johnson in it. You should've seen Yen Ling and i! We were soo emotional throughout the movie haha! Screaming, cheering, laughing, crying, you name it.
And we were split into groups and i got to know a greaaat bunch of people that i never really, which i am ashamed to say ): bothered to know. All in all it was great :) Good. haha! And the Snow White drama was a huge success! Even if we do say it ourselves :P We had fun, and that's the best success for this drama of all!

We had Yasmeen as Snow White, Shiao Yen as the evil queen, Char Lie and i as the King and Queen, Kushaal, Yee Ai, Chi Yan and Candy as the dwarfs, Nicole as the prince, Marcus and Eng Chew as Tweedledee and Tweedledum haha! FAT BOYS, WHERE ARE MY FAT BOYS ;P and of course Shye Wei our very own Doraemon as the Fairy Godmother ;) OH and Kah Deng as Cinderella. Mind you, he's of the male species. I just hope we get to do this again, TOGETHER :) It seems like this will be the last time for all of us ): Last year in school and our retirement coming up and all D:

Just wanna say guys, i've loved working with every one of you so much for one year(almost) :D I'm glad we don't fight and bicker over stupid things and have the funniest discussions in the prefect room haha! Okay, i'll leave the mushy stuff to when we REALLY retire ;P)

Paul's birthday lunch was today :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUL! Hope you have an awesome year :) And we all went for lunch at Rabbit Cafe. Gotta say we had fun just sitting around chatting with everyone else :)

TIM SIM, IM SORRY T___T you know what i'm talking about! ):

Give us the strength to make it through

2011-03-12T18:20:00.000+08:00

 Help us find love cause love is over due.

Went for Petrosains yesterday with Interact Club and it was really really awesome :) but then i came home and faced nature at its worst. I found out about Japan's 8.9 earthquake. I am seriously still a bit in denial and shock now, as though i'm still not believing that it really happened.

I pray for Your hand of peace and wall of protection over this nation's people. And also for Hawaii, Papau New Guinea and many other countries who are expecting some shakes and etc. Lord, their lives are in Your hand. I pray for their safety.

I also pray for compassion, and love and care. The whole world is talking about this and it shows how love can cross through borders. If that's so, then prayers can do that too :) Accompanying this devastating disaster is always the war at Libya. With everything going on, i pray for their wellbeing and safety too. That they'd have Your peace in their hearts when they go to sleep at night.

And of course protection against complacency that plagues the nations. This is getting melodramatic, haha. But i'm a bit tired of the acts of complacency and the 'go with the flow', 'ignorance is bliss' thing going on (around me and in me, which sickens me even more).

Yes, God DID put us here for a reason. But i'm pretty sure it's not to close one eye on all the blatant injustice going on. Even talking about it is a taboo. Either that or we're just too lazy to be bothered.

Isn't that the worst crime of all?

Pretty pooped right now ): Legs aching. Funny how disasters like this can bring the world to its feet. But 2 weeks later, we're all back in our couches slipping into our normal nonchalance.

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts

I see you driving 'round town with the guy I love and I'm like,

2011-03-08T16:31:00.001+08:00

Forget you!

I can't get this song out of my head! I burst out in song (THIS song) when i'm bored. Haha! So to all who i've annoyed to no end with this song, please punch YEN LING. Not me.

She was the one that went all

"Ooh! Oooh! Have you heard this song? *hums tune*"

HAHA AND she's my singing buddy in class. I just can't get over how cute the song is! I know it's so wrong and silly but it's so wrong and silly in all the right ways. A sort of breath of fresh air from the repeated tunes on the radio ): Very 80s/90s 8D

2011-03-04T22:05:00.003+08:00

What if everything happens for a reason?

But what if everything happening isn't for the reason?
What if i never get to study what i love?
What if i never get to where i'm meant to be? Where i wanna go?
What if we can't find it?
What if i never fall in love?

What if it never amounts to anything?

What if i never amount to anything?

What if i never hear God's voice?

What if i never was special?

What if i was meant to be Joe Average?

What if i wasn't strong enough?

And what if things stay this way forever?

How can two innocent words strung together in nonchalance bring such danger to faith and mind?

Fairytales aren't meant to tell kids that dragons exist, it's meant to tell kids that dragons can be slayed.

2011-03-03T17:12:00.003+08:00

The sky on.. i think the 21st of Feb :) My mom pointed it out and it's beautiful

Okay, will update soon hopefully ): It's like barren land here right now. Thanks to Intervensi 1 just two weeks ago that only ended on Monday this week D:

2 drama scripts for 2 different performances to finish up and also lewat lists to finish up (and i thankfully just did today WOOP!)
Definitely got a lotta things lined up for these two months. Along with figuring out the songs, moves and everything else for Cheer. And also planning meetings for both Interact and PBSM. ): And now for public speaking in April (which i'm pretty excited for)

Nope, i'm not stressed out. I'm fired up! Haha! I literally thank God for this peace and two solid feet on the ground. I know there are so many other people who have so much more to do than me. Therefore, i'm immensely grateful for the blessings in my life in the form of friends and family to help me out ;)

And everyday's a fun day lately haha!

BRING IT ON. ;)

Just an excerpt of today's devotions on odb

"Peter was still thinking in human ways of establishing kingdoms. One ruler would overthrow another and set up a new government. He was expecting Jesus to do the same. But Christ’s kingdom was going to come in a new way—through service and the sacrifice of His life."

I remember a conversation i had recently.

"Don't you think it's a little too much meh?"

"Well for us/me, Jesus sacrificed his life lor, so what's all this compared to that?"

I regrettably did not phrase it well. But yeah :)

Your job is to be yourself, and my job is to love you no matter what. ; Glee

2011-02-01T22:05:00.001+08:00

Haven't blogged in a looong time. Okay so i'm just gonna recap remnants of what i remember over the past 2 weeks.

Went to help out at a Tamil school by painting and sanding their new furniture :) with the interact club that is! Really great time cos i got to know a few of them better haha! Also my brother's first school outing since he entered Saujana. I just realized that, huh! And the awesome thing? It's the SAME SCHOOL where YC-ians went to help paint as a part of one of last year's conference projects!

HOW COOL IS THAT!? :D I got to see the fruit of their hardwork :) The murals are really so pretty and well done :D

PROUD TO BE A YC-IAN :3

Oh yes! 17th January, the start of our YC fast where we fast and pray for greater things, fasting on things we use or eat often :)

I fasted on the internet (mucho success! wasn't on the net for 2 weeks apart from the important mail-checks i needed to do ): ) and also on meat lol! Yes, i eat a lot of meat.

I couldn't fast a meal mostly because i have gastric ): so yeahh

But anyway it went real well :) Ps. Rose texted us a prayer item everyday for the past 2 weeks which was a great encouragement.

We broke fast on Sunday the 30th of Jan. Also the day where Chloe and I were out the WHOLE day lol! Chloe slept over since she was gonna teman me to 1st service the next day (THANKS CHLOE) . Which reminds me of my grandma's bday dinner where i couldn't eat meat ): and 3/4 of the dishes were MEAT.

Okay anyway, after 2nd service we (Chloe, Kaylee, Luke, Gabe, Sek Hao, Basil, Justin, Jarrett, Kevin, Aidan, Tim, Allison, Amy, Ashley, Annabelle, Michelle) waited for Ben and the others to pack up the food till about 3pm. We entertained ourselves by making noise and messing around. With the DSLR that is :P

After that we went to Mid Valley for a little fellowship time but we got stuck in the jam for ONE HOUR. Well.. almost an hour. 45 minutes at least! I remember the air condition smelling funky at one point. And Sek Hao wanting to pee. BADLY.

Since we were there around 4pm by then, we decided on an early dinner, and then a movie. It was jammed outside anyway so might as well stay longer. And during dinner i had the 'honour' of becoming Kevin's daughter. LOL Born out of pure random conversations xD And he ended a lot of his sentences with "daughter" after that.

Then we went bowling, or technically the guys went bowling while waiting around for the movie to start. It was between watching Faster or Gulliver's Travels. And we decided on Faster. BIG MISTAKE ): It was mostly made up of killing and murder and gore and cars. Too much noise, the kind of action-packed (literally) movie that lacked depth ): I liked the few plot twists though. I think allllll of us were super kan cheong at the part where Dwayne the Rock Johnson's character pointed the gun at the reverend/pastor. WOOH probably the only scene where i was on the edge of my seat sort of thing.

Then we hung out at McDonalds. Yeah, we're THAT cool, haha! The trip back was reaaaal funny thanks to everyone (well a few of us) exchanging jokes. I'm STILL laughing over Luke's joke xD I seriously can't hold a straight face whenever i think of it or want to retell it.

Overall awesome way to start off the hols :) I WENT FOR TOSEI ON MONDAY! FINALLY! I've been having strong cravings for it since i ate it @ Kiieshan's house when a bunch of us went to visit during Deepavali.

...Shoot, now i'm hungry again D:

Anyway, gotta get back to packing for Pahang. Leaving tomorrow. More excited about getting to wear my new clothes! :D

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

2011-01-13T21:35:00.000+08:00

I didn't know of Back to December having a music video anytime soon. So it was a great surprise 8D haha thanks to twitter and Katherine ;)

I really really hope for things to get better. It's been 7 years. Let him grow.

"I get better overtime. I'm not some top 40 song, easily digestible.

2011-01-13T20:56:00.003+08:00

I'm complex, i require time and multiple listens."

; Ted Mosby HIMYM

Hmm. I love Calvin&Hobbes :3

The necklace that Sam, Jofan and Justin call the 'money tree from sejarah' necklace. HAHA i have an owl ring they call the 'Godfather ring'. Like the ring that the wearer goes "kiss my ring" or something

I like this app in Facebook, God wants you to know.

What i got today;

In this day of your life, Su Wen, we believe God wants you to know ... that you are perfect as you are.
God doesn't create faulty life. No. Everything created by God is perfect, and so are you. So stop driving yourself mad with endless ways to improve, and just accept the glory of your being as is.

Hmmm :)

Sooo school's been.. good. Having a pretty okay level of wanting to study.

So far there's cheer, marching, zoo trip and organizing programs for interact and pbsm meetings.

But it's all goood, everything's been quite manageable and the stress hasn't.. well eaten me alive yet. Unless some small details or infuriating attitudes here and there that just sets me on a frenzy. Been spending an oddly immense time on poupee ): Must really cut back haha.

I guess i just love dress up games ;P Okay, now time for add maths and whatever hw i have left. Bleh. Friday used to be the most carefree day for our class. Now it's the one day with all the epic subjects.

Which reminds me.. i need to buy a long book for sejarah D:

The beginning of an end

2011-01-03T23:56:00.000+08:00

The much used phrase today ;

The last first day of school.

So bittersweet just thinking about it ): Had a lotta fun catching up with people i haven't seen in 2 months today! Sang Negaraku twice too ;D ...well, more like mouthing it. But hey, there's always tomorrow!

This year, i wanna be as organized as i can, as active in co-curriculum activities as possible (yes, even sports) and as dedicated and focused as ever.

I hope for a breakthrough and guidance on what to do. I hope for strength to lay down my pride and vanity.

Okay time to hang out with Sejarah. I just found out how unfamiliar i am with Chapter 10 and Chapter 6 and 7. And 8. And 5. And 3.

Oh did i mention it's SPM YEAR BABY.

If you're lucky enough to have something that makes you different from everyone else..

2011-01-01T00:42:00.003+08:00

don't ever change. Stay beautiful

; Taylor Swift

I really want an iPad now ): After using my uncle's when i was at my grandparents', i fell in love with it. Reading fictionpress in it is like heaven. And Youtube is SO CLEAR on it.

Okay, must stop thinking about it. Also considering an Android phone or a Sidekick 8D I don't know what's with my sudden interest in techno gadgets.

Anyway, i haven't been blogging lately ): So just popping in to say: 2 HOURS TO 2011! ❤

I'm oddly looking forward to it. New school year, new.. i'll think of something LOL My sinus is acting up again. WHAT IS THIS. On the eve of the dawn of a new year.

Sad that i can't join the others at church for Thanksgiving service ): Going to my old church's Thanksgiving service tomorrow morning anyway.

Hmm i'm just going to jump to another topic. 2010

My Form Four year. I remember whining so much about Bio and the whole culture shock with how hard the subjects are and the format of the exams.

Thank God that was over. But now it's SPM. Which just sounds all the more exciting.

After spending so much time away from school, school and 4Cengal life seems so far away. But i loved all the funny and weird moments that are bound to happen, especially during Nilam and rehat haha! With Marianne, Shiao Yen and the rest there.. it's never a normal period lor ;)
I'm envisioning all you guys punya laughs now, and that's kinda almost the only reason why i wanna go to school faster.
Apart from wearing my new school shoes. Yes, i get a thrill from that. And i'm one of those crazy people that are excited for SPM :D (DID YOU KNOW, SPM can also be spelled PMS? Hmm)

I hope to spend more time with the Jatians and the Kiara people next year ): This year saw us drifting slightly apart due to the different classes.

This time, i'm gonna make double the effort to glue to all of you guys! IT'S OUR LAST YEAR TOGETHER. how surreal is that? Marianne brought up that we won't be seeing each other everyday anymore after this year. And for me that's seriously hard to believe ):
You guys have been a part of my life so much and i really dunno how much i would like that change lor D:

I'm gonna TREASURE THE MOMENTS :D

Oh yes, continuing with the reminiscing. And also all the mini productions we've done in class. And the amount of shouting (for fun) that circulates our class. Usually originating from yours truly. Yes, i am proud of that fact. Gotten to know so many of my classmates and bonded so much more with Char Lie, Yen Ling, Sook Yii, Shye Wei and Pricilla.

OH YES AND THE ARRIVAL OF *PRICILLA HENG THIS YEAR ;D haha! I just made you sound like royalty Pri, YOU'RE WELCOME.
*Pink because i know you abhor the colour. You're welcome, again!

Like i said, gotten to know so many of classmates wellt his year :D and it really did seem like we were all family. Heck, we WERE almost like family :) Zhen Meng, Chun Yuen, Boey, Lip Quok, ETC ETC EVERYONE IN CENGAL LA KAY! ❤❤❤
I still remember there was one day, when Chun Yuen (our resident Perasan Queen/King. Yes, he can do both ;D) brought us all cheesecake, one for everyone :D

I WAS VERY TOUCHED OKAY. haha

YC has become such a big part of my life, more so this year cos i'm involved in 2 ministries. And also i've grown so much closer to a number of YC-ians :)

Along with my school friends too, i'm so thankful for all of you guys. You all make my life seem much more interesting :)

FINALLY, started on the Bible reading plan that YC gave out the starting of last year. It got stalled again (paiseh paiseh) during the hols but i'm DEFINITELY going to continue hopefully tomorrow. It is 2011 tomorrow after all.

Hols have been especially busy (in a good way) this year too :) Kicked off hols with voluntary work at the Chopin Piano Competition and bonded with mah buds. Also got to know so many participants from all around the world.Then it was dance practice for Christmas production all the way. (WHICH WAS AWESOME!)

Christmas took a funny turn during 2nd service when the first song's .. well song, kept jumping and the whole thing was in slow mo. It happened once during rehersals before, we didn't think it'd happen during the performance itself o_o

But it was awesome in a catastrophic way haha! Bryan the lead singer, improvised VERY VERY well, he sang it with so much more emotion than during the first service.

Us dancers accomodated to the slower pace and we apparently looked like we had more 'joy' ;D Mostly cos we were also highly amused at the song that was jumping LOL

After that, we had a thanksgiving dinner at aunty kat's place on the 28th and Ps Dorai spoke about how during the first service he didn't feel God's power clothing him. And the altar call wasn't received well among many. No one came out for the altar call.

And that caused a sort of brokenness in him. The same brokenness that we kinda felt during the first song. We were a bit down after that because of it D:

But what he said next was impactful. That maybe we need to be broken in order to be clothed by the power of God. What i relate to is, we have to be broken to be renewed. And that makes so much sense.

The whole music jumping thing was out of the blue and there had to be a reason for it to happen. And that reason at that time was something only God knew and in time it would tell. And it did.

Because during the 2nd service, many came out for the altar call, many said they felt the power of God during Ps Dorai's sermon.

How awesome is that? Or rather, how awesome is He? :)

(typed this @ 10pm. Then went out to yumcha with my aunt, and two cousins. haha funny and awsm time :) I like listening to them talk but it means that i came back to continue this at around.. 11.45? D:)

Okay, apart from that!

Conference (inserts numerous exclamation marks) then started and it was one of the best highlights of the year.

Worship sessions seemed to be so much better and to be able to go out into the community and just give back is awesome :) This year i, along with Chloe, Kaylee, Jarrett, Tim Chew, Joey (and etc) participated in the Crisis Home project.

I never knew about Crisis Home until this year, which is a home that houses residents who are HIV positive and are rejected by society. And to tell the truth, the uncles i've met there are some of the AWESOMEST and NICEST people i've ever met.

They're much nicer than any random well-bred stranger on the streets you meet despite being plagued with such difficulties in life.

You know how people say that although we were there to help, the tables turned and they ended up helping us instead? This is exactly that situation.

I can say truthfully that THEY have inspired US instead of US inspiring THEM. Helping them repaint their house and cooking for them and cleaning their compound didn't seem like such a chore because of all their bumbling personalities :D

We even had Christmas Eve dinner with them, and you should've seen the looks on their faces when we gave them xmas presents. Not anything over the top, just simple things like shampoo. And they're so happy and thankful for them.

They don't hope for sympathy, or special rreatment we realized. Just acceptance and just people to talk to.

If we're a society, a humanity that can create such modern technology and beautiful architectual skyscrapers, how hard is it to just lend a listening ear?

I liked what Ps Pax/ Sis Lydia Paul (our speakers for the conference) said (i forgot which of them said it). The term "godforsaken place" is so interesting. Because the place that is so deemed godforsaken is the one place that would be so filled with God's presence and so rich with it.

Because God didn't send Jesus in a hospital, in a castle or in any noble home. He sent Him to be born in a manger. In filth, where animals feed.

And more often than not, we forget the true significance of this imagery.

I think i should add "blog regularly" and "arrange time better" into my list of 2011 resolutions. Yes, i have a list of that. I'm generic that way.

I know these resolutions can be done any time of the year, and change shouldn't just happen at the start of a year and i agree with that. But i think i'm too knee deep in procrastination and laziness, i'm grasping onto any means of procrastination.

This is not good.

Went to Selena's farewell party on the 26th. I'm really gonna miss her!! I just got to know her and now she's leaving us D: To New Zealand. The land of sheep haha.

I still remember CLEARLY our first real conversation which was some time after AGC last year. Gawd was it AWKWARD. And when i brought it up to her, she totally agreed! We both had the same thoughts " Oh shoot, what to talk about next?"

HAHAHA Looking back it's so funny now, considering how well (okay laaa ;D MY NINJA BUDDY) we get along now.

Thanks mostly to dance practice ;D And the fact that we're on the ninja side of the NinjaVsJackieChan thing. Something random we came up with during one of our practices. I still remember which isit. The one where we tried to figure out what to do with the organzas!

Sel, i know you're prolly not gonna see this, cos i don't think you know i have a blog, but thank you for being a friend :D
We're not THAAAAAAT close but we're good together right? ;D
Love you lots!
And you really are a woman of God and i wish you the best over at NZ.
May you be surrounded by love always :))

Gotta say that in 2010 i've gotten closer to my siblings and family. It's not something phenomenally life changing, but it's just the littl changes that happened. I hope you get what i'm saying.

But anyway, 2010 hasn't been ALL good. Or ALL bad. I like this quote a lot because of the truth in it

"Life's like a piano. The white keys represent happiness, and the black keys show sadness. But as you go through your life’s journey, remember that the black keys make music too."

-Anonymous

mmhmm :)

But anyway,

WELCOME 2011!

You've got some big shoes to fill.

2011-01-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE !!!

2011 is here and let's welcome it with a bang :D

Let's make history
Let's make this year a year to be reckoned with
Let's make this year a year of love all around!
Let's not make this year a year of US of ME
Let's make HISstory !
Let's make a true, inside AND out a 1MALAYSIA YEAR :D

Feeling so patriotic and gung ho now! Let's hope it translates well into History homework

HAVE A GREAT AND AWESOME YEAR PEOPLE! GOD BLESS EVERYONE :D

Spirit reign, flood into our thirsty hearts again

2010-12-24T23:18:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE GUYSSS!

about 44 minutes to christmas ;)

Lord, let your spirit reign during tmrw's services & performances, Amen

I want this Christmas to celebrate Jesus, the saviour. To celebrate the miraculous birth and sacrifice :) I hope that tomorrow.. well that tomorrow will be great :)

Aaaaand, I really really really hope i'll be able to wake up at 4am tomorrow. Pray for me! HAHA

2010-12-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

GREATER THINGS.

Because i don't want it to end.

Because i want this to be a beginning.
*

This is the sound of the redeemed rising up to praise the King.

Day 07: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

2010-12-07T22:13:00.000+08:00

If you can't be there for me on my best days, why should i trust that you'll be there for me on my worst?

I don't know whether i've heard this before. Or seen it somewhere before, i just somehow had it in mind.

Stomach's still feeling unwell. Went for facial early in the morning today :) Felt so much better after that. And getting out of the house early in the morning again felt SORTA awesome.

The waking up early part, i ain't digging.

Been reading a fictionpress story that's starting to hurt ): As in the story's progressing towards a dramatic genre and it just ends BAM at the kan cheong point of time.

I think my emotions are pretty raw from reading it. Adding on the fact that my stomach's still PMS-ing.

Nvm, i've still got FRIENDS (the tv series) to watch and eat chocolate over. If i had any chocolate. Do guavas count? .. I think this is where i suavely switch the subject.

Tuition was fun today :D Shye Wei, Tian Wei and i (i just realized both of them have WEIs in their names!) sat wayy in the front since there wasn't any space at our usual table.

Which was a welcome change for once :) Not having to turn my head 90 degrees just to see the board.

And we had a pretty hilarious chat with Mr Lee and his cluelessness in storybooks HAHA Tian Wei was SAM-PATLY pointing out an article he was reading that had the Twilight book cover on it.

And she was like *POINT* and Mr Lee almost immediately said "No, no, i'm just reading an article about it", since he's made his (sorta) dislike of the books known to us for some time already.

LOL Then he proceeded to chat with us about books.

He's the awesomest nerdy teacher ever! :D ...I hope he never reads this.

OKAY. ANYWAY.

Someone who has made my life worth living for.. There's a lot really. I think i'm not in a pondering and deep mood to actually think too much about it.

Well one, i've definitely got to say it's my family :) I mean they get on my nerves a lot- and i mean a lot- but there are those little moments where i see the sacrifice that each of them -especially my parents- make and it just makes me go all weepy or.. something.

Someone who's really made my life worth living for.. I can't think straight or anymore. And i don't wanna lie, not here i guess. So i'm just gonna.. let this challenge sorta 40% pass through?

Or i'll come back to re-edit this when i think of it. Or when i'm in a not so pissy mood.

Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do.

2010-12-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

Having a lot of fun with the new Facebook profile thing. HAHAHA Marianne's officially my grandson on FB now! (well, technically GREAT-grandson but closer than son ;D) (inside joke)

Speaking of Facebook, i reaaallllyyy want to watch The Social Network. I just read an article about how it's not totally based on the real facts but i don't care. And i know how people think Andrew Garfield is hot and everything, but Jesse Eisenberg's the man for me 8D

Andrew Garfield has a cartoon character as his last name. Nuf said. And he has a very.. villanious look about him. Idk i just don't like him. He's apparently the next Spiderman.

Stomach's still doing some weird Karate-Kid thing :S I think i'm having gastric. No, scratch that, i'm sure i'm having gastric. I don't know why though.

As far as i know, i've been overeating and stuffing myself with food for no apparent reason these days.

Like a lot of things (which are reasonably true) i blame the "girl problems". Bleghh

Been trying to study Physics and failing at it ): I NEED TO SEE AND A ON THAT SLIP NEXT YEAR T_T

Or next next year -when we get our results back- if you want to be technical.

Instead all i've done is watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S, played my mom's iPhone games and Sims 2 on my brother's PSP.

Okay, Day 6!

This photo is so true, it deserves a repost ;D

Okay, something i hope i never have to do. You know, before this i always thought martyrdom is something i would hope i never have to do.

But really, it's oddly.. okay with me. But like Pastor Guy said it's a sort of.. special grace (?) that's only bestowed on a certain number of people. Not everyone's destined for this great, sacrificial act.

I'd think what i hope i never have to do is.. well apart from the usual likeee murder, stealing, etc etc.

I know one thing i hope i NEVER EVER have to do. Drown.

Or get stranded in the middle of the sea. Or having to SWIM in the sea to save my life. Because i can't swim well.

Drowning. I dunno, it's always been a bit of a.. phobia to me. The thought of it scares the bejeezus out of me. The earliest memory i have of drowning (seen on tv of course) was this show, of these two brothers and his dad in a helicopter flying somewhere, so it happens that the helicopter crashes.

Into the sea. DUMDUMDUM. And the brothers got out but their dad's safety belt was stuck and he couldn't get out. It doesn't take a genius to figure out what happens after that.

Basically the story starts from there la, like how they discovered some weird city or something but idk, i can still sorta vividly remember that scene in the show.

I remember trying to hold my breath whenever i watch any drowning scenes to see if i can hold on if i were in that situation. Bad choice. I almost always fail.

Idk i think the thought of choking/losing my breath till i die is just.. scary.

Okay, now i'm getting paranoid. I'm just.. gonna go watch shows now kthxbai.

Day 05: Something you hope to do in your life.

2010-12-05T23:49:00.001+08:00

Ughh i feel so sick right now. Got back from dance practice and i felt this bad straight away. Now it's about 3 times worse with my nausea stuck in my throat threatening to bubble out of my mouth. And my stomach's doing some weird somersault thing in there.

Headache somemore. Today is definitely not my day ): Got to watch the TVB awards though. I missed that :)

But the award show these days are so.. mundane, not so comical anymore. I think partly cos Eric Tsang's not there nymore. ):

Had a very productive bible class today :D Dalvin was our teacher and he taught us exegesis a way to understand the bible and the meaning behind each verse.

I like that because i like finding out the history of things, or the meaning of things and sometimes these things really blow my mind.

I was THIS CLOSE to buying one of the books that have the meanings behind each verse for the bible but it was too expensive ): And i couldn't find where to get it.

If you know where to, it'd be nice if you told me! :D

Anyway Day #5 :)


This reminds me of our dance for the Christmas Production :D (from Tumblr)

So.. something i hope to do in my life. There are a few number of things i definitely hope to do in my life. Unrealistic and realistic ones too. (I can't seem to obey the word "something" in the intended singular form LOL)

Something selfish i hope to do in my life is travel the world. Like every corner of the world, roughing it, sitting first class in an airplane or walking through the deserts by foot.

I want to go to the dangerous streets of Lima, Peru ; eat and stuff myself with all that Italian food and become a voluntary paramedic in third world countries. I don't mind only sleeping with the grass as my alas. HAHA

I want to visit EVERY museum available in the world ;) Call me boring but i like museums. Mostly the ones that have a REAL history of the country or culture of that certain place.

I want to one day visit every museum alone. That way i can have a stupid awe-struck-jaw-hanging face on me and i don't have to wipe it off. Haha! Though i'd definitely love to travel with friends once in a while.

But at that point of my life, i hope to have gained a sense of independence and self-confidence that can allow me to walk through any door alone and not feel awkward or self-conscious. :)

Another far-out hope i have in life is to have brought a change in my own nation. To be part of a movement that can touch the hearts of my own country and direct them towards a better life. Then of course to aid the third world countries. Or anyone that's in need of help. Whether they're in deep trouble or skimming along the surfaces. Okay getting melodramatic, moving on;

To help rid this nation- and the world of corruption and homelessness and poverty. Since i was young i had this (another) far-out dream to build houses for the homeless and the stray animals.

I also hope to build a school that can be accessed by anyone, anywhere. Lol! I'm not going into detail in this one.

The thing with me is, the more passionate i am about something, the more i shy away from it. I tend to get a bit choked up with emotion when i see poverty or stray animals sometimes.

And.. well it's not something i'm proud of, but that's why i try to.. avoid i guess.

Some of the more grounded hopes i have in my life are to fall in love. Really the heart-wrenching, earth-shattering, Godly-centered love. Haha! A bit unrealistic again.

Realistic version? Someone who loves me for me, and accepts my bad habits and weird (WEIRD) attributes. Someone i will love wholeheartedly without a doubt ;D I'm always indecisive and "i dunno" but in this area, i hope to a strong clarity. And have a marriage that lasts and that my husband's love and mine will never dim.

Not like the many tawar ones we see these days.

I want to be a woman of God. One that you know is God's daughter with just a glance. I know a few people who are that and i hope to one day be able to do that. With good intentions of course ;P

Apart from that i hope to impact a person's life. To be a friend and a guide. And be there, truly be there for a person at their worst needs. And this time i hope to have the right things to say xD

Of course i hope to provide for my family, the best and fulfill their hearts' desires :D I know my parents and grandparents have a lotta dreams they didn't manage to achieve, and i hope to achieve it for them :)

Wow, this was long. LOL I think i'll stop here :) And continue agonizing over my stomach's PMS and watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S ;D

Day 04: Something you have to forgive someone for.

2010-12-04T21:20:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling all pissy and cynical right now for some reason.

Btw have i mentioned that i'm so glad Ann won for Cycle 15!? 8D She's so.. soo reclusive and socially awkward that i just love her! haha ;D

I hate when the laptop/Firefox lags. >\

After the jump :) Don't read if you don't care. I'm not being emo here, i mean it. Because what i write in this challenge might get personal as each day passes and it sucks that i'm so paranoid i feel like ever word i write will be judged. So yeah.

That's kinda just to let that paranoid midget in me get out and have a stroll.

Something i have to forgive someone for.. Well i guess, it won't be specifically towards someone. More towards the matter, rather than the person.

For me, i've always hated what the person did more than the person himself/herself. So one thing i have to forgive another for.. would be (at the risk of sounding obnoxiously bratty) their insensitivity. And blatant ignorance that stems from (at least what i think) not caring in the first place.

It kinda sucks when you're a friend to a person (with platonic intentions of course) and they just don't seem to appreciate it, only spouting out words of appreciation for the sake of it but not because they mean it.

I think i'm going to be a bit cynical so i'll just rethink that.

~~..Okay. I think i get the most pissed whenever -okay, example ; i'm responsible towards you and i expect you to be responsible too but you just don't give a shit. Something like that?~~

~~I guess it's mostly my fault for- really- expecting something or maybe assuming that others would or should act like how i did. That, i'm not going to hold anything against them for.~~

But what i can't stand is.. well almost a total disregard for a person's feelings which i've received before and also watched others receive it. So i get pissed not only for myself but for the said victim's sake.

I'm totally not sure what i was trying to convey there ^. But i don't know whether to delete it or not. So it's just going to look all messy there lol :P

You know what, i'm just going to cut to the chase, in a nutshell, i've been harboring a bubbling anger towards a certain person that has let me down on numerous occasions. Time and time again i would hope for you to at least have a modicum of understanding of my situation or be there for me- because you're my friend and you said you would- but you've let me down.

There's those irresponsible actions that affect not only me but a number of others, coming off as not even giving a shit and the worst thing is i feel like you don't even bother to care.

But that's just me. And well, i think, each time i've let it go or let it pass or just bury it inside of me.

I don't even know what to say right now. No seriously, i'm just typing whatever comes to my mind.

I know the right thing to do would be to be all "sappy" and say i'll graciously forgive said person and cry tears of joy. I think my period's otw, so i'm having one of those cranky/cynical moments. But really, i think it's something i have to forgive that someone for. Of course i've never hated said person, more like i've hated with a passion at what said person does/did. (Keyword : what she/he did, not who she/he is)

I might let it pass or forgive those tiny actions that pile up and get on my nerves every time but i know i've got to really really let it go for me to fully forgive whatever you or anyone else has done to me.

So yeah, it's definitely going to take time but like what i've said before, i won't stop trying. ..It's going to take a lottaaa trying. I'm a sensitive and paranoid person. Worst combination ever because it equals a insecure, unsure and indecisive idiot.

Nevermind if you didn't understand that. I could barely comprehend it LOL :X

I'm a house of cards

2010-12-04T12:40:00.002+08:00

ONLY REAL MEN WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH TAN JOEY AND I.
WOOH. HAHA
We're like blue cheese ;D (some random thing i came up with for some time already)

Joey came over spontaneously yesterday and we had a LOOONG chat ;D AGE IS JUST A NUMBER JOEY.

HAHA! And she gave me the CUTEST presents eva 8)

I missed this ): We used to talk and talk and talk at Mr Lee's, especially with Sheila girl-with-the-same-surname-as-me Lee!

Now both of them are not attending Mr Lee so we don't get to talk all together anymore D:

Which reminds me of SKSM reunions we've always been talking about. Must get my butt around to really making it work one day. Okay, goal : have EVERY reunion i ever said i wanted to have.

I still want the Slouchy Bag.

Which oddly reminds me of my nightmare last night. I was so scared to get out of bed even if it was already 10 in the morning. I had a dream where i was shot in the head (probably from watching From Paris, With Love) and then i became like a wandering spirit or something, trying to find out who killed me.

It was even scarier cos the whole atmosphere of the scene was dark and murky like. And then it somehow led to me having a child and etc etc, i don't even wanna re-live it now.

And then the next dream was so thriller-like, i think it was myself, Char Lie and someone else, i think it was Yen Ling xD We were infiltrating some place and then we had to squeeze like moles in these tiny tunnels and it was.. quite fun la LOL

Then we found an illegal gold mining place and then we had to run away and then we ... it's so complicated. But in the end we met up with our class 4C and went on a field trip in that very 'illegal place' or something.

And Chi Yan was talking about staying at Hotel Maya. AHAHAHA

Welll, i'm gonna go watch F.R.I.E.N.D.S now and hopefully get a double piercing later ):

Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

2010-12-03T22:18:00.004+08:00

I've been rewatching Autumn's Concerto for some reason and it never fails to get to me. I find it one of the most touching stories because of it's execution and the acting in it. Vanness Wu and Ady An are awesome in this!
I mean, i know the storyline's pretty typical ): Boy loses memory, etc bla bla bla. But i just love it after all this time. ..Probably cos i love the whole Girl has Boy's kid and Boy doesn't know about it.

I'm not weird. I'm limited edition. BOOYAH.

Okay, that was random. LOL Now after the jump ;

Well today IS Friday after all :) And i just got back from dance practice. Random detail.

Sooo.. something i have to forgive myself for.. I think mostly it's about the mistakes (embarrassing ones at that) that i have done in the past. The ones where i say something i don't mean or try to be funny and end up being insulting to another. Or the ones where i did some things out of a pure desire to get attention.

There were lots so it's hard to list them all out now.

And also all the times i've bitched about my friends behind their backs. Or complain about things that turned out to be great.

And also the times when i was young and was filled with hatred towards my brother and bullied him a lot. Yes that's definitely the one thing i'm still gnawed with guilt about.

I bash myself up with guilt about all of the things above whenever i fall into some depressed oblivion. I keep living in this cycle of guilt especially in the part about bitching and complaining. Like doing it then feeling guilty.

I do ask for forgiveness for the ones that were hurting, but i have to shamefully say that i get blinded by my pride sometimes, to say sorry. Especially towards my siblings.

But don't worry i'm not that tyrannical anymore :) I've gained forgiveness from the ones i need to apologize to (well most) already, but i don't think that i've really forgiven myself, deep down. It's all buried in a big pile of mess that needs to be straightened out inside of me.

It's always easier -for me- to pretend it's not there and just live in denial. I think i've strayed from the topic ; but well in a nutshell, something i have to forgive myself for was my past actions. And the past me - which can be very subjective. I have to live in the now, and change in the now and forgive myself for who i was 3 years ago, last month, last week or even yesterday. Because i can't change the past.
That's pretty selfish of me but.. yeah.

Currently i think i have to forgive myself from my short fuse, although it's not a good thing. But i think instead of mulling over it, i should change for the better.

And seriously, it's easier said than done. Knowing my uncontrollable mouth. But nothing's going to stop me from trying. Not that i'm not already.

Anyway, i'm gonna go watch a movie with my family now ;D Hopefully it'll be From Paris,With Love. After Pricilla told me this phrase from the movie, i badly (well almost ;P) want to watch it just for that phrase. xD

Day 02: Something you love about yourself.

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I just really need to say this :

I WANT THIS BAG SO BAD. It's Diane von Furstenberg's Stephanie Slouchy Bag in (wait what was the colour again.. *CHECKS*) i think it was Metallic Gold. I read somewhere that the process of making the bag's texture and material was very special but i forgot how. I think it was something about woven metal to form a chain-like structure. (EDIT : it's metallic leather woven in a chain-like manner to form the texture ;P It looks like it's made from metal, no?)

I seriously need to stop looking at this bag but i can't! The moment i saw it on The Back Up Plan i was in love. The whole time during the movie i only wanted to watch J-Lo holding that bag.

...No, i don't think that sounds weird. BUT ANYWAY Day #2. I was kinda procrastinating it till the last minute. I seem to love procrastination these days, I've been trying to work on Chapter 5 of Physics since exams ended. And i'm only 1/4 of the way through it. I was too distracted by F.R.I.E.N.D.S :X I LOVE MONICA AND CHANDLER TOGETHER. Sorry, just need to get that out. Haha! I'm currently on Season 5. Yay!

Oh sidetracked, anyway, after the jump :)

I love this picture. This cut-out. It's from tumblr and it was my wallpaper through Finals :)

But anyway, onto the challenge. Something i love about myself, well you'd think someone as perasan and thick-faced as me would have a storm to blurt here but i actually needed quite a lot of time to think about it.

Since i don't have any pending assignments or anything of that sort, my mind's pretty free to wander.

There're a lot, and i mean a lot i can come up with that i hate about myself which i didn't list down in the previous post. But ploughing through all those hates that seem to shine more than the likes (okay if i don't make sense here, just skip to the next sentence), i do love myself (sometimes, most of the time). In a healthy way of course.

What i love about myself is that i can pick myself up when i fall down. I mean of course i'm not superwoman and i'm not one of those people who have a forever positive light on things (something which i totally tabit them for). And i'm not one of those independent people who are strong and well, independent. You know, those main female characters you read in chic-lit books or whatever. I'm somewhere in the middle, even if i do say so myself. I can cry my eyeballs out alone in my room, contemplate suicide or murder or whatever (which i highly don't recommend or advise you to do, but hey i was angry and depressed or whatever) and 20 maybe 30 minutes later i get my perspectives straight.

I get back on track and i don't let whatever happened get me down. I wallow as deep as i can in it and then i let it pass. I don't let it go because we all know i'm a pretty clingy person but i don't let it hammer me to the ground.

It might not show i guess, or it might be pretentious to say so but that's really what i think because at the end of the day i might be my own's worst judge of character but i know myself best.

Apart from that i like that i'm weird. I like that i'm loud. So if you every call me those, please don't think that you're stepping on hazardous grounds because i like it. I'm socially awkward yet i can be the most outgoing person among my friends or certain groups of people.

I like that i'm both. I guess. Hmm. I hope this conveys what i wanted to say. Because it's 11.19pm now and all i want to do is go downstairs to get me some soya bean to drink.

LOL kthxbai ;D

Almost like the puzzle piece i've been trying to find

2010-12-01T22:21:00.004+08:00

Got this from Chloe, the bestest blur friend you can ever get. Key word; BLUR. ;D haha! i still lubchu. Oh and since we're on the topic of Chloe, CHLOE : I'm sorry for being a bitch lately ): If i was that is. Okay back to the post ;D

I think she's doing the 30 Days About Me one but i decided to choose this one. 30 Days Of Truth :) I actually took some time to decide cos the 30 Days for this one is pretty personal (which made me have second thoughts since blogger doesn't have the post locking thing) and optioned for the Inspirational one instead. But.. yeah i'm just going to jump into this :)

Day 01: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02: Something you love about yourself.
Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

It'll be after the jump so.. read at your own risk :)

Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself

Well i hate a lot of things about myself. But currently i hate the jealousy that i have. It's the most irrational, bratty sort of jealousy that just bubbles and just exists in me these days. Like for instance i get jealous over great things that happen to my friends which i should be happy for- for them.

I hate that my emotions get driven constantly by this jealousy and i do stupid things or say something that i don't mean, just because i was in the heat of the moment. So yes that's what i hate about myself. Because it makes me ugly on the inside, which is the worse feeling in the world.

I really want to ultimately be truthfully and honestly happy for everyone i love and everyone i know. I think i'm going through a pissy stage right now so i just feel like people owe me something even though i know, clear through my bones that they don't.

It's like i just need to be naturally bratty. WHATISTHIS. Okay so .. there're more ; like how i say things without thinking. Or doing things that i cringe in embarrassment later onwards.

I hate how i need people to like me. Char Lie once said that i'm the type of person where people like after getting to know me, which i'm very okay with. But that also means i don't really make good first impressions, which is pretty much a known fact because i'm Su Wen after all.

I don't know, i think it's a people-pleasing disease that i have. I mean it doesn't show, but it's there. I want to live life for myself. Not selfishly without regarding another's feelings or situation. But without letting others' judge and dictate what i do or how i feel.

EDIT (2/12/10) : Oh yes, and i hate my short fuse. I hate how uncomfortable i get when i don't get my way or when something's stopping me from completing something. I hate how i blow up easily at that point of time.
Because i hate well.. blowing up. And then feeling uber guilty afterwards. The kind of guilt that just eats you up. Okay getting melodramatic here, but you get my point :)

And i hate how i wallow in self-depression when my period's otw. Ugh :\
I just realized something is singular. (COUGHS) HEH.

Sparks fly, it's like electricity

2010-12-01T17:40:00.003+08:00

Us at the pool area :) I loved those chairs!

Pricilla !

Outside of MPO, after the Opening Gala. We almost met SOMEONESOMEONE out here ): But we walked too slow. SIGH.

One of the pianists that performed that night :) Her name's Melody Quah. Char Lie, Char Nie and i froze for a moment when we heard the name cos we thought it was Saujana's Melody Kwa LOL

That's Char Nie, Thanat (one of the contestants), myself, Jyh Yee(the famous pedo ;P) and Silarat (another one of the contestants) :D

I was.. i don't have anything witty to say. I'M RED RIDING HOOD. HAHA (inside joke)

Ying Siew, Nash and myself :) He's one of the most popular contestants among the volunteers. I tell youuu, there were so many girls fawning over this little guy xD

Jyh Yee, myself, Akagi (one of the contestants), Chi Yan and Char Lie. She was AMAZING! She's half-deaf and half-blind i think and she competed in Concerto 'C' which was the hardest category and one of the longest pieces.

Warrick, Serena (both are contestants in the Junior Category), Yen Ling and I :D
We had loads of fun disturbing Warrick while he was playing Plants vs Zombies on Serena's iPad.

Jyh Yee, a Ukraine contestant whose name always slips my mind and myself. She's pweetttyy :)

Jyh Yee, Yen Ling, Evelyn (another contestant, she was the ONLY ONE that qualified for the 2nd stage in the senior school category. awesome or what?!) and myself.

The volunteers ❤

We're normal, really. ;D

The emcees ❤

Vicka and i! She and her sister look so much alike and both of them are such sweethearts ❤ i love hugging them :D

Yen Ling and i with one of the contestants from Thailand

Ying Siew and i with the girls from Thailand. Also contestants :D

Regin and i :) We did the flowers together during the Closing Gala haha! Who knew flowers could be so heavy ):


Yen Ling, Thanat (another contestant from Thailand and he got third in his category!) and i. Do not be fooled by his height. HE'S THIRTEEN ): So tall.

They call it rambutan for some reason! LOL ;D

Us with some of the volunteers :D Ying Siew, Hong Syuen and Wye Bin

Thank you Pricilla! For always fetching me there and back the venue. I promise that when i get over my fear of driving and drive a car i'll make sure i'll drive you to malacca, makan then come back ;D HAHA

Credits for pictures to :
Pricilla (the pedophile haha!),
Ying Siew (MAH EMCEE BUDDY ;D) and
Hong Syuen (WHO EATS MARBLES ;D)
the 'red riding hood' picture's from our frog prince ;D HAHA

4th ASEAN International Chopin Piano Competition

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Venue : Panggung Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur for the competition itself;
Hotel Maya, where we stayed and where the Closing Gala was held;
MPO, where the Opening Gala was held.

Dates : 23rd-28th Nov

Was there with Char Lie, Pricilla, Yen Ling, Char Nie, Sook Yii, Chi Yan, Zhen Meng & Tuck Fai.

AWESOME EXPERIENCE and met so many great people there! The volunteers AND the contestants. I tell you, the contestants are so mindblowing, some are about a decade younger than i am and they're playing Grade 8 pieces. Their fingers look like they're floating and flying over the key.

Makes me wallow in a puddle of self-pity cos i can't even recognize the piano notes anymore ;_; I did stop for about 4 years now, so it's only natural ;D

..sorta.

BUT ANYWAY, the competition was great :) I was emcee with Jyh Yee (THE PEDOPHILE. AHAHA) and Ying Siew (I don't know why, i just wanna hug her right now ): ). Was supposed to be dutying backstage with Yen Ling as head but i got switched to emcee which i sorta regret cos i could've been able to mingle with the contestants if i were backstage T_T

But nonetheless i got to get to know 2 new osom (yes, chloe i'm using your word) peeps ;P

I love it when it's lunch time 'cause the boxes are so cute and practical and we all eat together ; sometimes discussing about a few certain contestants HAHA. Most of the volunteers stayed over at Hotel Maya the whole week but i only stayed on Tues and Fri night due to certain reasons.

SHOULD'VE STAYED OVER ON SATURDAY NIGHT ;___; << TEARS OF REGRET OKAY.

THEY WATCHED AVATAR. AND AND they saw some people ):

But i had fun @ Gloria's 16th that Saturday, so it's all good! ;D haha Whoever wasn't there, you guys missed out on a lot okay! THE FOOD WAS THE BOMB, the best i've ever eaten at any party. I even thought it was catered then i found out Gloria's mom cooked it all herself.

Which made it all the more tastier :D

Anywayyy back to the competition, the Opening Gala itself was grand :) It was at MPO and there was a performance by 2 accomplished Malaysian pianists and Prima Vista the string quartet from Poland.

I was a bit sleepy since we had a full day working that day and then we had to rush back to the hotel to get ready. FUNNIEST MOMENT EVER. You walk into room 2003 and you'll see all of us running here and there trying to get something or just shouting out random orders to Zhen Meng and Tuck Fai.

Two unlucky males to suffer our wraths xD

Apart from that, i always sneak into backstage and help out there (YOU'RE WELCOME YEN LING. HAHA *ISPUNCHED*) out of the goodness of my heart ;D

Why you givin me that look? I was being nice. Pssh

Partly also cos i fall asleep often ): Emcees are RIGHT in the international panel of jury's sight, which makes it harder for us to slack off. According to Sook Yii, Yen Ling, Tuck Fai and Zhen Meng (the backstage people) apparently it's funny to see the process of me dozing off

I'm just thankful i didn't drool which has.. (cough) happened before.

Anyway something funny happened on Saturday which was the 2nd last day of the competition. I was moving backwards and then slightly tripped over Yen Ling so she held be to keep me stable. Then BOOM we started falling again and then THIS TIME i tripped over these heavy weight things that had the words DBKL sprayed over it and BAM there was a really loud noise as it (and us) hit the floor. LOL And all this RIGHT before a contestant was supposed to go onstage. I think he was chuckling at us.

Yen Ling landed on me and then after that, we laughed over it xD This all happened backstage by the way. And the irony was; the backstage area was supposed to remain super quiet.

That rule almost always flies out the window whenever i'm around to help.

Now i want to eat burgers, chilli cheese fries and chug down a milkshake. MARIANNE, SEE WHAT YOU DID.

The staying over at the hotel part was interesting too. They had a beautiful spiral staircase that i was mesmerized by. But by the 2nd day i wanted to saw it apart. It's so tiring to just climb up the staircase and the fact that it was a spiral staircase didn't make it better. I just felt dizzier going up ):

A few of them called it the staircase from hell. LOL I think everyone gave up on it by the 2nd or 3rd day and just used the lift instead.

We swam in the pool and i tell you, Zhen Meng makes the most OBSCENE noises of all. Don't be fooled by his angelic face. We watched 'The Secret Life Of Bees' at our hotel room. We rented it from the hotel, haha i remember how jakun we were about the loooong list of movies they offered. Although Dakota Fanning was in the movie (and i will forever love her ;D), i didn't really like it ): I pitied the dad most of the time.

We were THIS CLOSE to watching The Sound Of Music. Don't laugh. And we sorta wished we did ): At least i do ):

On Sunday i didn't help out cos i had dance practice and stuff. So i went to the full rehersal and then changed at church and rushed to Hotel Maya again by 6.30pm. And i was supposed to be there by 5pm. Whoops ;)

I loveee the moment before an event where everyone has to rush and you see people walking here and there trying to get everything done. Don't ask me why, i just love it. I had to stand in heels for about 2 hours and it ain't pretty ): We had a major photography session and i enjoyed every moment of it, despite the hurting heels. In fact i really enjoyed every part and every moment of the week :)

Even if i was pissy at the beginning

I'm hungry again, so im gonna go downstairs to get more food then come back upstairs to start on Yen Ling and myself's virtual study date AHAHA We're nerds that way :P

When & Where?

2010-11-19T23:09:00.003+08:00

TELL ME THIS ISN'T CUTE?!

"How much do you love me Reese?"

"Can't be put into words," I replied.

"What if I was ugly?"

"You're not?" She punched me. I laughed. "Then I'd put a bag over your head and admire your inner beauty." Her eyebrows creased a bit. "I'm kidding about the first part."

"Stupid?"

"I'm smart enough for the both of us," I said playfully.

"Bald."

"That's what wigs are for."

"Slimy."

"Why would you be slimy?" She shrugged. "I'd hug you while in a raincoat. Done yet?"

"Morbidly obese."

I burst into hysterics. Just picturing Theresa too big too walk was just comical. "I don't care as long as you don't sit on me."

"Is there anything that could possibly make you stop?" she asked.

"Well, are you a cannibal?" I asked. She shook her head. "That's about it then. Can't really think of any other issue. I mean, if you turn out to be a serial killer, we could always move to Mexico."

; When & Where? by Hemii25

I love reading stories on fictionpress. If it weren't for the fact that it's online and challenges my already impaired vision (luckily, i like wearing glasses on and off :P), i'd probably love it more than paperback books.

Just finished reading When & Where and i LOVE this author's work! I read Speak To Me and it was so sweet I'm prolly gonna start on both of those stories' sequels but it's not completed yet. I'm still contemplating whether or not to go through the agony of waiting for updates. It's no secret that i'm impatient and cranky when i have to wait ):

Gonna start on some Physics (HAHA right. yeah) and try to finish reading Exodus. Speaking of the bible, i've FINALLY gotten around to reading the bible mangas or whatever it's called LOL

Gotta say i love 'em! My brother got Mutiny and Melech from his Sunday School teacher. Hoping to get Metamorphosis and Messiah. :)

l'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle

2010-11-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

Dante writes that God is not merely a blinding vision of glorious light, but that He is, most of all, l'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle..

"The love that moves the sun and the other stars."

Devotion is diligence without assurance. Faith is a way of saying "Yes, I pre-accept the terms of the universe and I embrace in advance what I am presently incapable of understanding." There's a reason we refer to "leaps of faith"- because the decision to consent to any notion of divinity is a mighty jump from the rational over to the unknowable, and I don't care how diligently scholars of every religion will try to sit you down with their stacks of books and prove to you through scripture that their faith is indeed rational; it isn't. If faith were rational, it wouldn't be - by definition- faith. Faith is belief in what you cannot see or prove or touch. Faith is walking face-first and full-speed into the dark. If we truly knew all the answers in advance as to the meaning of life and the nature of God and the destiny of our souls, our belief would not be a leap of faith and it would not be a courageous act of humanity; it would just be.. a prudent insurance policy.

I'm not interested in the insurance industry. I'm tired of being a skeptic, I'm irritated by spiritual prudence and I feel bored and parched by empirical debate. I don't want to hear it anymore. I couldn't care less about evidence and proof and assurances. I just want God. I want God inside me. I want God to play in my bloodstream the way sunlight amuses itself on water.

; Eat, Pray, Love : Elizabeth Gilbert

Just a snippet of something i just read this afternoon that really struck me. Just struck-in, no struck me as curious or hairan or something bombastically worded either. Just struck.. -in.

I hope i make sense.

EPL is the ONLY book i've ever folded the pages dog-eared style on so many pages. And it's only because i didn't want to miss or forget any of the passages i read that really struck me. (there's that word again, struck. haha random) It's so badly folded that it looks like one of those tattered books (minus the coffee stains and the crumpled pages la. I take care of my books one okay!) that you check out of the library only because you're desperate for that title.

But i love it :)

Hmm, by the way, I'm still at the India part of Eat,Pray, Love. Yes, slow i know.

l'arte d'arrangiarsi

2010-11-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

; The art of making something out of nothing

"There is a time for silence; there is a time waiting your turn," says Taylor(Swift). "But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it. I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now."

Jack of all trades.

2010-11-17T22:20:00.004+08:00

Master of none.

though oftentimes better than master of one

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" Matthew 7:12

2010-11-16T16:27:00.002+08:00

I remember Pastor Rose or someone else speaking about this during a sermon. And she/he also said to treat others how you would want to be treated, never mirror their treatment to you.

Maybe not in those exact words, but definitely in that context. It's hard to follow of course. Discontentment often bubbles under the surface but -for me at least- if i do treat others as badly as they treat me, at the end of the day i'm the one feeling ugly on the inside.

And it wouldn't be that much better on the other person either. So i guess what i'm saying is.. it's hard but i really want to live by this "Golden Rule" as closely as possible. After all it's usually the answer to the neverending question.

"What would Jesus do?" :)

Okay, so onto today. AHAHA FUNNY STORY. Char Lie, Shye Wei, Chi Yan, Yasmeen, Nicole, Candy, Yee Ai, Kah Deng, Kiieshan, Marcus, Eng Chew and I went to Pizza Hut for a little lunch since it is the last day of school after all. Okay so the funny story kicks in here

We were walking there and Kah Deng was running la, since he wanted to be the first in line or something- some male competitive ego thing i'd rather not get into (COUGH)- and he was turning behind to talk to Kiieshan and I (i think) and he was jogging while saying "Ei guys faster la!" THEN WOOSH

His leg fell into a vent hole.

AHAHAHA You know? The- nevermind, lets just imagine a hole. Hopefully the picture'll be up on facebook soon :P The first reaction we all had was "OMG ARE YOU OKAY!? (proceeds to help him up but he refuses cos he wants to pain to subside first) (and all this while we were doubling over with laughter) (oh yeah. it was funny. Kiieshan kept laughing like no tomorrow)"

Our second reaction was "OMG PHOTO PHOTO (THANKFULLY chi yan had a camera AHAHAHA)"

And yes, we laughed ALL the way there.

Priceless.

The lunch itself was funny xD Yasmeen's tudung was accidentally dipped into the mushroom soup. And she gave us a How To on wearing a tudung ! LOL using another unused tudung of course ;P

I really hope i'm making sense.

PizzaHut's a pretty good hang out place. For some reason haha! Okay, need to go get ready for tuition soon. Chem's Form 5 syllabus, yo! What fun.

(EDIT. 171010; 2047) AHAHA GO AFTER THE JUMP (coughs) to see a little sum'in sum'in


CREDITS TO CHIYAN❤. Don't kill me Kah Deng.

Tell everybody I'm on my way , and I'm loving every step I take. ;Brother Bear

2010-11-15T16:32:00.005+08:00

I'll start with Saturday.

Was at Prima Selayang for the YKPM gotong-royong held there and it was one of the awesomest times i've ever had :) It really took me out of my comfort zone and made me count my blessings more.

So i was team leader for the team in charge of block B and there was a LOT of grass that we had to uproot ):

And yes, it was hard! The roots were so deep even for those little tiny shoots.

And families of worms were living there. Just geh-reat T_T But after a while i guess most of us got over that fear which was great :)

There was a guy who lived there and he was staring at us doing the gotong royong work. I initially thought he was watching out for us in case we broke into his house to do a hit and run or something.

Blame my pseudo paranoia.

Anyyywayyy after a while, he started to squat down and help us out too! Darryl, one of my team members, talked to me about it in chinese and we were both awestruck. It wasn't everyday we got to indirectly inspire another to do something :)

And it was also great since Uncle Michael was talking about trying to get the residents to take ownership of the cleanliness of their own properties. And the fact we got to help the residents out there :)

SO YES : AWESOME.

He (the guy that helped us out with the root pulling) even treated to all of us sweets after that! It was inexpensive but meant so much. :) Had fun with the games too- which Kaylee and i brainstormed with Ben the day before. The whole planning and executing process was just so oddly fun :D Even with the slight stress and pressure.

Speaking of, Friday night i had to go home later than the others to type the list of games out so Ben had to fetch me home.

True to my personal streak of weirdly bad lucks, Ben's car tire was totally flat. Like pancake flat. LOL Luckily the church car was available. OH YES. PIMP DADDEH. AHAHA Inside joke.

Kaylee, Chloe and I had a lot of fun with that word the whole time we were shopping for the games' materials and lunch.

Sunday, I went for both services due to Chloe and I's LCD duties. And boy was it tiring ): In a good way. Mostly cos i was sick anyway. I love how YC is always so spontaneous and full of laughter :)

YC touched on the persecuted churches around the world last week, and i gotta say it was really heartbreaking to just hear about all these stories.

I think- at least for me- that we take things for granted so much that we don't even realize it. Like the tiny piece of hair that poked into my thumb (yes, poked) and it's now embedded into my skin to the extent where you can't even see it.

Scary.

TODAYYY we (Chloe, Ying, Ern, Wei Xiong, our eng lit teacher and I) went to the Big Bad Wolf book sale. It's the 2nd awesomest book sale i've ever been to, the first being the Penguin warehouse booksale. KLCC's book fair is NOTHING in comparison to these both.

The prices are enough to turn on any bookaholic ❤

Had lunch at BREEKS and Seoul Garden which was joined together, Ying Ern and i - the more civilized ones- ate BREEKS while Chloe, Wei Xiong and teacher ate the korean buffet. Pssh.

PSSH.

On a totally unrelated note, finally got around to changing my blog layout :D The chatbox and credits are all the way at the bottom. And i'm done downloading HIMYM Season 3 ❤❤

Learning a bit of basic italian (For example : BAMBINO. HAHA JEMIMAH :P) and starting on a bit of world geography. Planning to start on Greek gods and goddesses :D

One of the books i bought was a Nursery Rhyme book and a dictionary of word origins. HAHA RANDOM.

Currently gonna flip through a guide about vintage fashion. Oooh yeah.

Bought loooaaaadss of books there, i think i spent the most ): gonna go rest now. Then help baby brother out with his Kumon.

Physics, Chapter 5 is such a drag ):

God's gifts put man's best dreams to shame. ;Elizabeth Barrett Browning

2010-11-10T13:52:00.001+08:00

I should blog more :S

Life's been good? Yup. Getting back our finals' results is so.. bittersweet. I don't want to get all melodramatic about this so let's move on. Currently trying to finish this assignment ;_; I hate how procrastination tempts me into forgoing all my deadlines and just blah.

Okay, so right now, today (Wed) I've got to finish the article, arrange my Eng Lit file (I GET TO MINUS TWO DEMERIT POINTS MAN. this is a good thing, trust me), eat then go for tuition then dance practice. Gotong-royong at Prima Selayang this Saturday! Things are so hectic and events are clashing ): But i oddly love it ;D

FINALLY reading Eat, Pray, Love (THANKS, JOEL! Gold star for you ;D haha) and stuffing my face with sweet, salty, etc etc snacks. You name it. I will never, ever, EVERRR manage to go on a strict diet. I think i'll binge the moment it's over.

Shoot, i just wanted to post the first sentence up and now i get a paragraph. My subconscious is trying delay finishing the article. ANYYYWAYYY i think i should get to that now BYE

"And yet, I love you. Dwell on that". ; GOD

2010-10-31T21:53:00.000+08:00

Was baptized by Pastor Rose and Terry ! Had the awesomest time ever :) I forgot to hold my breath before going into the water! HAHA

Then i had dinner after that with Chloe, Ben Gan, Jarrett, Sam and Justin Hiew.
I was in the slow lane for quite some time. Inside joke ): WOMAN OF THE TWENTY FIRST CENTURY YO. No, correction, A BAPTIZED WOMAN OF THE TWENTY FIRST CENTURY ;D haha!

2010-10-25T00:34:00.003+08:00

Thanks guys for all the wishes, in advance! ❤❤❤ EVERY one of you guys are a blessing in my life and i'm so thankful for every single one of you :)

Happiness is never stopping to think if you are. ; Palmer Sondreal

2010-10-24T19:32:00.003+08:00

These past few days have been great! Despite the final exams and all the preparations for Prefect Night, i loved every minute of it. Prefect Night was AWESOME! I dunno bout you guys but i had a great time :D I loved the business and the spontaneity (in emceeing) of it all. Getting all the messes straightened out and slotting in last minute things that worked was such a great feeling 8D

So happy the fashion show and the games turned out all right!

I loved the hair the stylist did for me that night! Why can't pins be painless ): Then i won't have to take it out before i go to sleep. (Pictures up in Facebook i think? I didn't bring my camera so i don't know ): Was too busy throughout the whole event)

THANK YOU MARIANNE, SHIAO YEN, AND EVERYONE ELSE FOR THE STRAWBERRY CAKE ❤❤❤
See, im eating STRAWBERRIES for you guys. Yes, i consider this a huge sacrifice on my part. Now, cry ;D

But really, thank you soo much :)) I'm so sorry bout not being able to cut it earlier D:

After coming home, i ran straight (well, not technically but i really wanted to do that, if not for my very very sore feet) to the laptop and watched PlayfulKiss episodes 15 and 16 :D I wanted to finish up parts 5 and 6 of episode 16 at around 4am ++ but i fell asleep D: So the next morning (or afternoon, depends on how meticulous you are) i woke up and watched it.

This is just such a random recount of it but yeah HAHA

Saturday, i went to visit my relatives who came to visit from Singapore. :D And i chilled the whole day, when i actually told myself to study History. Sejarah, why you gotta be such a turn off?

Sunday, today, went for the leaders' training which was at a club in Bandar Utama and it was awesome! I loved the van trips there and back with Ben Gan, Janice, Justin, JoFan, Edwin, Jarrett, Sue Xian, Zkay, Alicia and of course Chloeeee. Full of random conversations and laughter! We were busy planning our imaginary trip to Mid Valley to watch a movie LOL Epic phail ): Blame SPM and finals ):
I liked the speaker for today. He touched on a lot of insecurities I (or we) kind of had and that was just great in itself. Usually (it's bad but) i get a bit bored and sleepy during some sessions, but for this one he's got my attention :) Idk what it is, i thought it was really interesting and just thought-provoking in a way.

Dance practice was great, tiring but great! I love it when there are dance practices. We're all practicing for one goal and there's an aim that everyone's working together towards. And of course the production is for God which makes it all the more meaningful :)

Feet still hurt from wearing heels the whole night on Friday and also today's dance practice with all the spins ): Going to go give History some hunk of burnin' love.

Joie de vivre

2010-10-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

CLICK ;D

It's my article in NST. I think it's gonna be published tmrw, according to the woman that contacted me :D It's funny how it got sent in, it was originally for the school yearbook, which meant i had to send it to my mom for her to print it for me at her office. Then she sent it to NST and only told me about it AFTER!

So yeah :) I think the other piece i did for them for "She says" is gonna be out next week. It doesn't show, but im squealing like a little girl with a Ken doll right now.

So, right now ;

My mouse died ):

Just heard Taylor's "Mean" this afternoon and i like it. IT'S COMING OUT NEXT MONDAY! My birthday *NUDGENUDGE* But seriously though guys, just wish me and i'll be happy enough, for real :)
Can't muster up the same enthusiasm that i had for Fearless two years ago for Speak Now this week, cos of Finals ): Just sat for Physics paper 2 & 3 today and i am so disappointed i'm not even kidding. It's not that it was deadly, it's just i made a LOT of careless mistakes 'cause i didn't read the questions properly. UNGH ):

Reaching the end of Genesis :) I really need to get an NIV version ): I need to re-read a few passages sometimes because i can barely understand the NKJV at times.

I'm supposed to be studying Bio. Ah pssh.

Leaving How I Met Your Mother on on my laptop helps me study. Weird, i know. I can practically quote each episode in Season 4 and 5 word for word right now.

Prefect Night this Friday! (hopefully things go as planned and it'll be great! All the ajks worked so hard on it) And PLAYFUL KISS' LAST EPISODE.

Damn 22nd Oct is a good good day.

Anywayyy time to get down and dirty with Bio. Ugh ):

2010-10-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

Math problems, the only place where someone can buy 80 watermelons and no one wonders why.

LMAO.
Okay time for bio. Good thing i love Bio!

HAHA.. No.

"Three choices in life: give up, give in, or give it your all."

2010-10-12T02:06:00.006+08:00

I wanna be someone who's proud to be herself, not letting what others think dictate her life but still having the right amount of consideration for another's feelings and wellbeing.

I wanna be a daughter that my parents'll be proud of and a sister my brothers can look up to.

I want to be able to provide a comfortable and prosperous living for my family, including my grandparents. I want to drive so my grandfather doesn't have to go to and fro to fetch us to tuition/school/etc.

I wanna be happy, genuinely happy for life, for my friends and my family. I don't want to be envious or jealous.

I want to be thankful day and night, despite the hurricanes in life.

I want to stop twitching awkwardly when i'm well, awkward. I want to love myself enough to believe that im worth it.

I want to be a daughter, a child that's obedient to God and fulfills His will. I want to be a woman of God with no hesitation or doubts in my faith.

And the best part would be the journey towards these. SO THROW ME ALL THE LEMONS YOU HAVE, LIFE.

..Well not now, it'd be nice if you waited till after the 2nd of Nov. Or at least after my birthday. No, scratch that after my history paper. Much appreciated, KTHXBAI.

2.02am +
Successfully (almost) understanding trigonometry (FINALLY) +
just read Genesis chapter 10-11 (i know, slow BUT STILL ;D) +
HAZELNUT COFFEE (which is almost borderline jelak already)
= this.

People who mind don't matter, people who matter don't mind, rings true.

Let the stars shine over you. 
Don't grow up too fast, too soon. 
Save some time for dreaming. 
–Kanga (Winnie the Pooh)

Problem is i dream too much and face reality too little.

2010-10-11T15:44:00.001+08:00

I’m not the kinda girl who looks great in every outfit.
Neither am I the type of girl who gets countless likes on Facebook whenever I post up a status or picture.
I’m not that pretty and ~~am really sarcastic at times~~ say the wrong things all the time.
If you don’t like it, I won’t force you to accept me.

Even miracles take a little time. -The Fairy Godmother (Cinderella)

2010-10-03T20:53:00.002+08:00

I miss watching Cinderella and other Disney movies all day long. Dreaming of a happily ever after.

The nicest thing about the rain is that it always stops eventually.
–Eeyore

I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.
–Ariel (Little Mermaid)

I try, but its to hard to believe. I try, but I can't see what you see. –Jane (Peterpan)

2010-09-27T20:10:00.005+08:00

Soooo right now

2010-09-27T20:08:00.001+08:00

Currently ~~procrastinating from~~ finishing up the moral project. We just found out a few days ago that the deadline is THIS FRIDAY. Whoopee. And apart from that there's still Chem Folio to finish up during the unofficial hols we've got due to PMR (so bittersweet)

(BTW. GOOD LUCK TO ALL FORM THREES! And also to all FormFives taking their trials! KICK ASS.)

There's the prefect night programme book to finish up, hopefully it turns out great!
Really hoping the preparations and arrangements for Prefect Night '10 will go smoothly, all of us are giving our best, especially our doraemon head prefect, Shye Wei :D Wish us luck :)!
Speaking of PN, i've yet to get my dress ): It's such a hassle this time round, to me at least i don't know why.

It doesn't help that Playful Kiss is distracting me so much ): I BLAME TIAN WEI. HAHA in the nicest way possible (RUNS) Chloe, Kaylee and i got in! The Christmas production that is :D It was so nervewracking, i messed up a bit at the warm up part and i was shaking badly during the solo audition. We had to choreograph our own moves! WE WERE LITERALLY O____O Thankfully all is well :)

I should really get to my Moral now. FINALS IN ABOUT TWO WEEKS. Blegh

The flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and most beautiful of all. ; Mulan

2010-09-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

❝ unclassifiable -- that which cannot be classified or assigned to a particular category.❞

What Diane Von Furstenberg said to Rhianna in ANTM's cycle 15. My favourite contestant :)
Ahyes, by the way ; PLAYFULKISSFTW ❤
Now.. ontofinishingmyenglithomeworkandthenwatchingep2ofpkalloveragainwooh! typingwithnospacesgivesmeathrillwhatup ;)

Are you kidding me? What kind of woman doesn't want a little bit of magic in her life? - Wizard of Waverly Place

2010-09-17T22:13:00.000+08:00

I posted just so i could post that quote. Stupid reason, i know. Anyway here goes!

Was @ Pricilla's today with Chloe and Lynn :) We watched 'Accepted' which is and forever will be (hopefully) hilarious HAHA I love that show :) It's funny but it subtly stands for something. After that we chilled at the pool area, then the playground then this grassy area.
Which equals to camwhore moments. And embarassing poses xD LOL
Had a great time with you guys :D !

--

Went for the Bookfest with Char Lie last Saturday and it was FUNNEH xD The Bookfest itself was disappointing unfortunately ): But Pricilla went on the last day and got super good sales.
Damn T^T

I couldn't decide whether to buy these two books @ RM36 or not(so glad i got them now ❤ i stayed up all night that saturday itself, finishing Julia Quinn's book. The next day i was all twitchy at church. Literally. Currently reading The Nanny by Melissa Nathan. And loving it :D)

(Where were we? ..OH right)
So we took a bit of a rest and went downstairs to the mini food court to get some food. That plate of french fries.. were awesome.
After deliberating somemore - which included Char Lie's 'socalledloveatfirstsight' with this young millionaire that was speaking at the fest. Not much of a looker LOL

"He is so cute!"
"...*gives her the wtf face*"
"And you know why he's so cute?!"
"...because of his hat?"
"HAIR? WTF? Why would i like a guy cos of his hair?!"
"I SAID HAT. HAT."
"HAT.. (she said something like) HAT IS EVEN WORSE. You are so weird suwen. Why would i like a guy cos of his HAT?! Is that you?! No wonder why your taste in guys suck."

... It's just the sort of conversations where you have to be there to laugh about. LOL
Knowing my infamous indecisiveness, Char Lie - who had to suffer it for hours- said

"JUST TAKE THE BOOKS"

"BUT.. BUT"

"SUWEN. I SLAP YOU ONE AH."

And some guy who was promoting for his booth was like "WAH so ganas ah." AHAHAH CHAR LIE AHAHAHAHAHAHA.
He was a bit.. bald? A teeny bit plump. Like a cute teddy bear :D Cute cos he called Char Lie ganas for the vicious beast she is. Sigh, such a friend.

Apart from that we bumped into Sabrina! HAHA Funny story, i was trying to stalk three ang moh guys and- ..(COUGHS) nevermind.

Hmm what else. MERLIN SEASON ONE'S DOWNLOAD IS COMPLETE ❤
AND ANASTASIA ❤(despite the stupid dual audio thing ugh)
Apparently Fate doesn't want Eat, Pray, Love and i to unite. When i checked it out at the BookFest, it was expensive D: And when i checked it out at BookXcess they said there'll be stock this week or next week. So when i went this week, the person said "I don't know when we're going to get it again".

I WANT EAT, PRAY, LOVE, DAMMIT.

And Marianne just took off to Hong Kong this morning DD: *WAVESATAIRPLANE* DON'T MISS ME TOO MUCH *BRICKINFACE*

HAHAHAHA

2010-09-15T02:20:00.000+08:00

Will update soon. I hope ):

2010-09-15T02:13:00.000+08:00

- Anonymous

You learn my secrets and you figure out why i'm guarded.

2010-09-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

Her voice is so much better :33 Some say it might've been cos of the tours last year, and her voice was strained ):
But damn, she's good now! The chorus is the best :)(3:04 WHOA) The starting's a bit flat to me ):
BUT NONETHELESS ❤❤❤

CHANGE YOUR WORLD IS TOMORROW PEOPLE!
BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!

I'm pretty sure the tickets are still sold on that day at the door :)! Change your world guys, for real. ❤

Now, think of the happiest things. It's the same as having wings.

2010-09-02T13:57:00.008+08:00

NOW I REALLY WISH I WAS IN THE UK.

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I want to watch Peter Pan. I forgot how it went and what happened in the movie already 'cause i was too young to even comprehend who Mr and Mrs Darling are ):

Peter Pan: This won't do. What's the matter with you? All it takes is faith and trust. Oh! And something I forgot.
[grabs Tinkerbell]
Peter Pan: Dust!
Wendy, John: Dust?
Michael: Dust?
Peter Pan: Yep, just a little bit of pixie dust.

Happiness is the best cosmetic. ; Karen Duffy

2010-08-29T20:04:00.001+08:00

Life's like a piano.
The white keys represent happiness, and the black keys show sadness.
But as you go through your life’s journey, remember that the black keys make music too.
; Anonymous

AURGH.

2010-08-28T11:29:00.000+08:00

I WANT THE GUESS SKIRT AND WALLET

WHY OH WHY DID I LET IT GO

IT WAS AT A MUCH CHEAPER PRICE AND now that i think about it EPIC.

Drowning in regret now OTL

2010-08-26T14:29:00.006+08:00

OMG.

~~Click.~~
~~It's quite blurry BUT I'LL TAKE IT ❤~~

EDIT 270810, 8.03AM.

Damn it got deleted ): I shall just wait patiently for the clearer version ❤
To ~~the suckers~~ my dear friends that are still in school ~~AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.~~ awwww ): i'll think of you ❤

Just watched Salt last night with my parents. Gotta say it didn't disappoint although i wanted more at the ending :\ Gonna eat my breakfast now and get ready to go out, bye! ;D

I had the urge to sum this week up

2010-08-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

...Although i'm only halfway through the week. But anyway ;
PBSM scrapbook. Marianne and i has probably shed a lot of hair over it. Especially Marianne. Inside joke ;D
Note to self : NEVER procrastinate and ALWAYS pester any teacher at all in charge about the full details.
I think we're going to be pawned this time in this competition T_T
All the deadlines for the decorations are due today (the scrapbook and the individual notice boards for each club or uniform unit) and it sucks cos Marianne finished the board super early (as in months earlier) and somehow someway all the decos fell off wtf.
So, Liew Jiun got Char Lie, Chee Hoe and i to finish it up. Didn't mind much just disappointed that all that hard work went to waste ):
Glad to be done with all of it now.

And next i've gotta settle all my koko marks. Fill up the purple form and buy a new koko book and blah.

Had a pretty okay heart-to-heart talk with a friend that i haven't talked much to for the past year :) Hope you're feeling better!

Eng Lit tuition was as crazy as usual. Two classes in a row, teacher has been trying to get us to finish all three essays (the 5 mark, 8 mark and 12 mark questions) in 1 and a half hours (which is too much time already, considering the fact that we have to finish 15 essays) but we always get distracted. LOL
It's just fun ;D I mean come on, how is poking and pushing Chloe around for ONE AND A HALF HOURS not fun? Even teacher hops on the wagon of the cool sometimes. (that's us not you Chloe ;D)

Finally finished reading 'Things I Want My Daughters To Know' by Elizabeth Noble. Gotta say i don't really like her style of writing ): I understand the whole 'different-character-point-of-view-different-chapter' thing but i just don't think it was executed properly. Half the time i didn't know exactly where i was and what i was feeling. As in i can't properly envision myself in the character's shoes and i just wanna jump to the dialogue part ): (too much E. Lit deciphering language here LOL)
The ending was the only part that made me cry. Because eventhough i didn't enjoy the reading experience as much, i was still touched by how far the characters came since the starting of the book when their Mom just passed away. Speaking of the 'Mom'.. she was annoying, i was this close to hating her guts.

Next is probably 'The Last Concubine', but i wanna concentrate on my finals ): Damn.

And now i've got to finish up my History and Biology notes by tomorrow. Again, procrastination SUCKS in this area. I especially have to finish Hist cos i won't be going to school on Friday.
CUZ I WONT BE GOING TO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY. NO SCHOOL. FRIDAY. CUZ I'M GOING SHOPPING. WITH MY MOM. YO.

..you know you're a goody goody two shoe-ed nerd when you're this jakunted about skipping school (and a day without much major subjects at that).

If i'm not married by 30, i'll take him, please. Thank you

2010-08-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

COLIN MORGAN YOU FTW.

P. S : HIS EARS ARE NOT FUNNY LOOKING. It's just special. DON'T YOU JUST WANNA RIP IT OFF?! 8D ..In a good way. WE HAD THE SAME THOUGHT ABOUT HOW ARTHUR SHOULD FIND OUT ABOUT MERLIN.
AND I SAID BOOM AT THE END, HE SAID BPOW. BOOM. BPOW.
If this isn't fate i don't know what is.

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. ; Desmond Tutu

2010-08-22T14:55:00.001+08:00

Okie doke, so today's Superhero Sunday was AWESOME! There were a lot of innovative ideas present at service 8D I especially loved The Powerpuff Girls ! LOL There was Catwoman, lots of Supermans, Ninja Turtles, Jedi (i think), Professor Utonium and the epicest, KING KONG. COUGHBenGanCOUGH.
I originally attempted for a Black Widow-ish outfit ('cause i love Scarlett 8D), which is basically all black but it was a total epic phail ): I shall not get into that.
All in all, i glad i somewhat participated. It was fun, watching so many people dress up! Someone even came as one of the Incredibles i think. My favourite favourite Pixar movie ever.

But anyway, back to the original point of this post. Remember the Appreciation thing? Yeah.. Well today marks another week :) And you can skip this if you want. It's just a medium for me to express what i wanna say. For a very long time, i've always been very thankful for my grandparents. For those who know me well, you know that they've been fetching me to my tuitions and when i was in primary school. They've always made sure that i have my lunch (and stuff me with food in the process, but it's all good) and they'll always be there when we're sick.

Credits ♡

Most people have only one grandparent so i'm thankful, forever thankful for both my grandparents. They're both so different in a way, my grandma's the noisier one and she has a pretty good sense of humour. But she's strict. You do not want to get on her bad side LOL. My grandfather's the more lenient one. He's always lecturing us, very nicely and he's in a way more soft spoken than my grandma.
I don't know exactly how to put it in words (of how they are and how they look) just cos there's so much. People (especially my dad) say i get my TV addiction from my grandma LOL. Which is inevitable since my dad's mom also suffers from that. (i use 'suffer' very lightly since they enjoy watching television dramas all the time) (By the way, the grandparents i'm mentioning now are on my mom's side)

They've taken care of me since i was young and it still hasn't stopped. Partially the reason why i wanna grow up so fast sometimes, is so i can earn a good living and give it back to them, although i know they don't hope for any of those financial boosts. Same goes for my parents.
This post is a very very very condensed version of my gratitude to them, to my family and to God for blessing me with them. There are times where i just think and i wonder what i did to deserve them. Which is rare but when i do, i'll be overcome by this great sense of .. warmth? thankfulness? I don't know how to describe it.
Bottom line is ; i may bitch about them sometimes .. most of the time.. okay sometimes (;D) but no words can describe how lucky i am to have them. Just because they're my family.

I can honestly say things aren't going very smoothly for us right now, not that i'll mention what. But there is a sense of peace that i can find. Because they are my family and i know God has been working things in my life, albeit subtle. I think it applies not only to me but to most of us, when i say that we do need to take some time out to actually think about our lives. Count your blessings. Not your worries or whatever else along those lines. It can be hard considering the circumstances of life, but you'll only realize how lucky you are then, despite it all. I agree with most of the sermons and messages i hear on Sundays that we're put here in our very position for a reason.
Because God's the best author there will ever be, and there's a story written out for us. But i guess it all boils down to our choice, which is the hard part.
So yes, before i start turning this post weepy, i'll end it here :)

Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts. ; Unknown

“Some days even my lucky rocketship underpants won’t help.” ;Calvin

2010-08-21T12:59:00.002+08:00

“I think life should be more like TV. I think all of life’s problems ought to be solved in 30 minutes with simple homilies, don’t you? I think weight and oral hygiene ought to be our biggest concerns. I think we should all have powerful, high-paying jobs, and everyone should drive fancy sports cars. All our desires should be instantly gratified. Women should always wear tight clothing, and men should carry powerful handguns. Life overall should be more glamorous, thrill-packed, and filled with applause, don’t you think?… Then again, if real life was like that, what would we watch on television?”
— Calvin

“Isn’t it sad how some people’s grip on their life is so precarious that they’ll embrace any preposterous delusion rather than face an occasional bleak truth?”
— Calvin

He is one smart kid. Obsessing over the daily comic strips in The Star these days ;D

CALVIN AND HOBBES.

childlike wonder.

Derp and derpina

SPM IS OVER

childlike wonder.

"It's a lie to think you're not good enough. It's a lie to think you're not worth anything."

Awesome awesome, that's our game :D

So how was bersih?

BERSIH 2.0

THE LIFE AND TIMES OF THE TWO BIMBOTICALLY RETARDED WHYTHEFACE-CREATURES.

"I am convinced that He (God) does not play dice." ; Albert Einstein

Yesterday's lazy, cures today's crazy ; Cam, Modern Family

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, i'll sell em for a dollar

Brown Eyes

I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel the sky tumblin down

All i know is, i know nothing; Socrates

God's glory is on tour in the skies. God-craft on exhibit across the horizon. ; Psalms 19:1

I'm beautiful, just not to everyone.

Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

So raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right ways

TO MY DEAR WIFE :D

Advertisements make people dumb

You may say that i'm a freakshow

"Someday we'll find our place here in this world."

Monster High

"Brick walls are there for a reason. They give us a chance to show how badly we want something."

'Excited' electrons

And maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing,

Give us the strength to make it through

I see you driving 'round town with the guy I love and I'm like,

Fairytales aren't meant to tell kids that dragons exist, it's meant to tell kids that dragons can be slayed.

Your job is to be yourself, and my job is to love you no matter what. ; Glee

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

"I get better overtime. I'm not some top 40 song, easily digestible.

The beginning of an end

If you're lucky enough to have something that makes you different from everyone else..

Spirit reign, flood into our thirsty hearts again

Day 07: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 06: Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 05: Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 04: Something you have to forgive someone for.

I'm a house of cards

Day 03: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 02: Something you love about yourself.

Almost like the puzzle piece i've been trying to find

Sparks fly, it's like electricity

4th ASEAN International Chopin Piano Competition

When & Where?

l'amor che move il sole e l'altre stelle

l'arte d'arrangiarsi

Jack of all trades.

"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" Matthew 7:12

Tell everybody I'm on my way , and I'm loving every step I take. ;Brother Bear

God's gifts put man's best dreams to shame. ;Elizabeth Barrett Browning

"And yet, I love you. Dwell on that". ; GOD

Happiness is never stopping to think if you are. ; Palmer Sondreal

Joie de vivre

"Three choices in life: give up, give in, or give it your all."

Even miracles take a little time. -The Fairy Godmother (Cinderella)

I try, but its to hard to believe. I try, but I can't see what you see. –Jane (Peterpan)

Soooo right now

The flower that blooms in adversity is the rarest and most beautiful of all. ; Mulan

Are you kidding me? What kind of woman doesn't want a little bit of magic in her life? - Wizard of Waverly Place

HAHAHAHA

You learn my secrets and you figure out why i'm guarded.

Now, think of the happiest things. It's the same as having wings.

Happiness is the best cosmetic. ; Karen Duffy

Life's like a piano. The white keys represent happiness, and the black keys show sadness. But as you go through your life’s journey, remember that the black keys make music too. ; Anonymous

AURGH.

I had the urge to sum this week up

If i'm not married by 30, i'll take him, please. Thank you

You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them. ; Desmond Tutu

“Some days even my lucky rocketship underpants won’t help.” ;Calvin

Life's like a piano.
The white keys represent happiness, and the black keys show sadness.
But as you go through your life’s journey, remember that the black keys make music too.
; Anonymous